I'm sad because I lost my fitbit today! I had it on when we went into Costco, and when I got home, it wasn't on anymore. ARGH!

Oh no, meara! I had a moment like that the other day, but it was just in a different place than normal because those pants didn;t have belt loops.

Maybe an excuse to get the new braceletty one? I can't tell if I'd like that one or not. My fitbit says today I was more active than normal, which is true.

I keep feeling unsettled, like I've forgotten something, but I think it's just I feel bad for the SO, who is just now really getting sick with aches and stuff, and it's after three days of coughing. So it looks like we might be in for a doozy. I hear nothing right now, so I hope he's sleeping, 'cause he's basically had none for the three days.

Ah. I know what I forgot. Key to the school for tomorrow. But it's in the SO's pants pocket. I'll just have to try and grab it in the morning. I'm not going to bother him now.

ita, I'm so glad you're getting some treatment, although SUELA SMASH the Dr. IsaDick at RR.

Kat, I hope Grace gets better quick.

As for me, I got through my friends' funeral, which was way harder and more weepy than I expected. Looks like she really did just die in her sleep, maybe because of some problems with the drugs she was on.

Her family was lovely and really kind and interested in hearing about the whole part of her life she hadn't really talked about in detail--the fanfiction thing. We read some things she had written, and heard some wonderful stories, and now I'm exhausted and kind of grief-hungover, and I have to pack to fly to Seattle in 12 hours.

Aww, Suela. I'm glad you went, even if it was hard.

My brother-in-law's mom just died, and all the (adult) kids are there for the funeral. It's sad, obviously, but also, they're having a good time together as family, and my sister-in-law is so happy to have their grandkid there. Two of my nieces are pregnant, too, so they'll have cousins super close in age. I feel sad to miss them, and sad for the grief, but also happy to see them having such a good familial time together.

So yeah, funerals are fraught. But it's good you were able to be there for her memory.

So yeah, funerals are fraught. But it's good you were able to be there for her memory.

I'm glad, and I'm so glad two other YVs went with me: going alone would have been too awful to bear.

What I took from this is entirely banal: tell people what they mean to you. Find the time to check in. Apparently my friend, whom I hadn't seen in a couple of years, was on food stamps, and struggling hard with bipolar. I didn't know that she was having such a difficult time, and I don't know if I could have helped, but I wish I'd tried. At least I could have bought her dinner once in a while.

So much lost through bastard miswired brain chemistry. It's just wrong.

Aww, I'm sorry to hear that. But yes, that's a good takeaway.

I'm sorry the funeral was hard, but I'm glad you got to go.

Sending many get well vibes to Grace. I'm sorry she's so sick, but thank God you are able to care for her at home. It will make the caring so much easier.

And ita, what a relief just to be treated properly, not just in terms of the medicine but as a person. I get so angry at the doctors who mistreat you.

I made molasses chews tonight. Well okay, I made the dough yesterday but somehow it needed to sit in the fridge an extra day because yesterday they were good and today they were amazing! So I baked an extra batch so the kids could have them in their lunches tomorrow.

Molasses chews are cookies? I am intrigued.

Liese, check the traffic cameras for road conditions before you leave in the morning. And grab that key.

Y'all, I had a good night at work tonight! I got stuck doing shoes, just me and one other more experienced person, and after we'd been at it for, like, three or four hours everyone else ended up in the department next to us and the supervisor running the inventory calls over to us that we're doing great, normally they have six people on shoes and its amazing that we're almost done. So that was nice, but I figure it was mostly the experienced person carrying me because the magic counting machine tells me my piece-per-hour rate is and it's not that high. So, we finish up and I walk out of the store with a different (I think) one of the supervisors when we are all done and he tells me specifically that I did well and he's happy with my work and asks if I am scheduled for the next store like this! So pleasant to get a little pat on the back.

It's snowing and I have to walk to work. Or see which neighbor is up when Im ready and beg a ride. Uhg.