I can't decide, but so far, I'm taking home from the fireball incident: crowd-sourced science observations. And it just gave me an idea I need to mention at work.

The ads for Entertainment Tonight say "ET has your first look at the heart-wrenching finale of The Bible." I keep wanting to post spoilers.

I took advantage of my momentum and went to my boss, the director, and told him how dissatisfied I was with my performance last year, and why.

Ha! Apparently I have a reputation as a bully, but one with her heart in the right place. Basically, I get monomaniacal about delivering solutions, and I disregard collateral damage on my way to deployment.

I'm not clear why more senior (less incompetent?) developers didn't feel I was telling them what to do, but maybe...they knew what to do. It's a little theory I'm tossing around.

Anyway, I told him I felt there were holes in the team, i was frustrated, and yes, I was losing perspective in my push to get solutions delivered. For a bad review, it was pretty good. But...bad. And I don't know how to solve it.

So they'd rather have happy people than finished work?

If I thought I were seriously being cruel or hurtful, I'd feel worse about this. But, honestly, if she delivered, if her learning period wasn't a year and counting, if she didn't say things like "well, I don't know that, find another developer" when she knows it's not knowledge anyone has--she just doesn't want to learn...

You can be fucking sure I told him that stuff. Fuck "throwing her under the bus." It's funny that she's clearly been complaining about me, and one of the problems is that I stop communicating and either hand her the solution (from myself, or getting someone else to fix it), or do the work myself, instead of stopping at the analysis like a good little analyst.

Fuck that. If I have to learn .NET to make solutions magically appear, then that is my next step.

eta: Apparently my feelings don't need protecting. Yay? This feels like older sibling bullshit all over again, with the difference that I don't love this woman, and sibling bonds are a million times stronger than my professionalism.

Ginger,

ha!

Consuela, just caught up with the thread. I hope you find an amazing job and the f-sticks call you in ten months desperate for help and you are too busy to even care that they are crying sad woeful tears.

Grrgh, ita ! Sorry for the review frustrations. It sounds like incompetent!coworker is spending all her free time under-bussing people. While you are getting things done. Do not like.

I'm not clear why more senior (less incompetent?) developers didn't feel I was telling them what to do, but maybe...they knew what to do.

It may be a confidence as well as competence thing. A couple of my developers are super defensive. When I find an issue and report it to one I have discovered that his initial response is always "that's impossible" as if I have nothing better to do that make up errors and issues. This is followed a day or two later with his explanation and fix because he doesn't let it go just because it can't possibly be happening. So I always let him know via email with pictures lots of detail and then make myself unavailable during his denial period.

Because of the defensive stance so many of them take I have found myself jumping through hoops to present it as likely something other than their precious work product, but could they just take a look at this error and help me out. And these people work for me!!! Just delicate flowers I guess.

Consuela, I'm all for keeping the grey, but you know the field you'll be interviewing in best, so if you think a dye job will make you look more competitive. It's not like it will take a long time to grow out, anyway.

I dreamed I got offered a job last night, and I woke up all disappointed that it really didn't happen. Ah well. Something will come along, right? RIGHT?

I think the grey is fabulous both for Consuela and Theodosia! But understand the need to do what makes you most comfortable. My sister finally let hers grow out and it is awesome. She had much darker hair than me so it went white while I have maybe 12 grey hairs.

So Palm Beach is an odd place at times. The odd part about this one isn't to me that the rich dude can't legally adopt his 40 something year old girlfriend to take from the trust for this biological kids, the surprise was he was granted the adoption the year before, it was just reversed. Seriously dude, can you be any more of a scumbag? [link] Well, there is the hit and run murder part too. Somehow I see him selling his story for profit at some point.

eta: And I would take that dream as a psychic prediction of a near future event!