I'd rather have had a glowing eval, but she left saying she had a lot to think about, and she left saying she doesn't doubt my zeal to produce, so that's the most important stuff taken care of.

That's something -- it's so hard to share problems with other people without "throwing them under the bus."

I just got a really nice note to the Good Stuff from someone who said it seems to have an anti-oppression viewpoint, which I wouldn't have thought of, but sure!

Ok, puzzle time. The last image here: [link]. Grease, Stand By Me, or other?

Breakfast Club? (Especially if EAT is part of the clue)

edit: I R slow

Oh dear, decisions: 180 Days on a school in the DC system, the Russian fireball or Supernatural??

Thinking of the twins, in my mind, each year is a snapshot of one year's astonishing changes from one TG to the next. Meeting Noah that first year; the first year I got to meet Grace. Feeding Noah his first raw cranberry relish (he LIKED IT!) Watching her reluctantly learn to walk. First TG with her home for the holiday. Noah bursting into tears when I got out of the car to board my plane home. First holiday with both of them home for keeps. Riding trikes in the back yard and chasing balls. And who can forget drama llama? [link]

I can't decide, but so far, I'm taking home from the fireball incident: crowd-sourced science observations. And it just gave me an idea I need to mention at work.

The ads for Entertainment Tonight say "ET has your first look at the heart-wrenching finale of The Bible." I keep wanting to post spoilers.

I took advantage of my momentum and went to my boss, the director, and told him how dissatisfied I was with my performance last year, and why.

Ha! Apparently I have a reputation as a bully, but one with her heart in the right place. Basically, I get monomaniacal about delivering solutions, and I disregard collateral damage on my way to deployment.

I'm not clear why more senior (less incompetent?) developers didn't feel I was telling them what to do, but maybe...they knew what to do. It's a little theory I'm tossing around.

Anyway, I told him I felt there were holes in the team, i was frustrated, and yes, I was losing perspective in my push to get solutions delivered. For a bad review, it was pretty good. But...bad. And I don't know how to solve it.

So they'd rather have happy people than finished work?

If I thought I were seriously being cruel or hurtful, I'd feel worse about this. But, honestly, if she delivered, if her learning period wasn't a year and counting, if she didn't say things like "well, I don't know that, find another developer" when she knows it's not knowledge anyone has--she just doesn't want to learn...

You can be fucking sure I told him that stuff. Fuck "throwing her under the bus." It's funny that she's clearly been complaining about me, and one of the problems is that I stop communicating and either hand her the solution (from myself, or getting someone else to fix it), or do the work myself, instead of stopping at the analysis like a good little analyst.

Fuck that. If I have to learn .NET to make solutions magically appear, then that is my next step.

eta: Apparently my feelings don't need protecting. Yay? This feels like older sibling bullshit all over again, with the difference that I don't love this woman, and sibling bonds are a million times stronger than my professionalism.

Ginger,

ha!

Consuela, just caught up with the thread. I hope you find an amazing job and the f-sticks call you in ten months desperate for help and you are too busy to even care that they are crying sad woeful tears.

Grrgh, ita ! Sorry for the review frustrations. It sounds like incompetent!coworker is spending all her free time under-bussing people. While you are getting things done. Do not like.