Timelies all!

Gary gets home from a business trip in a bit(depending on whether or not the plane is on time), then leaves for another one early Wed. Ah, well...

You are more than qualified, Allyson. I am sorry this is so frustrating. But you are also a hell of a writer, so I can't help but be happy with you wanting to do more. I just wish it weren't because you were being treated so poorly by interviewing.

There is nothing wrong with you, Allyson.

At lunch today I got a text from a coworker saying "SOS! E needs you back here ASAP!"

So I paid for my lunch and rushed back to work.

When I get into the house and ask where the fire is, it turns out that there is a poisoned chipmunk squeaking it's last squeaks in E's office in a cozy little nook of discarded fabric.

Now, if I hadn't already gotten my lunch, if the last meal I'd eaten was at 5am and I'd rushed back because of a half-dead chipmunk, I'd a been truly pissed. The fuck, coworkers? Cry wolf much?

It's been three years since I got the Tom & Jerry distress call about a rodent in the building. 6 capable adults in the house, and they foul my lunch break.

I don't think it's possible to know why you don't get a job if you're not one of the people who doesn't give the job. Anything else is just borrowing stuff to worry about--which is a time-honoured hobby, but you might as well admit it's nothing other than a hobby.

I will say, I've never interviewed well when I've felt beaten down, either by my current job or by the job-search process itself.

I will say, I've never interviewed well when I've felt beaten down, either by my current job or by the job-search process itself.

Word.

I'm really hoping I won't have to interview to get my job.

I'm trying to figure out what the career path is to writing for the website and such. On the downside, they're usually the first people cut in layoffs. On the plus side, I'm not going to get ahead here in an administrative gig. They're all very polished and business-suited. I don't think I can do that for this kind of gig. It's very mad men-esque in that regard.

I know it's probably childish to say, "I'm not putting on a sweater set and spectator pumps and making coffee for another 2K a year."

I think that's part of the problem, though. I'm holding on to some sort of "fuck the man" attitude that is kind of silly at almost-40. I need the 2K. I look good in suits. What the hell is wrong with me?

I need the 2K. I look good in suits. What the hell is wrong with me?

Can you think of it as costuming?

I wear professional clothes to work: today I'm in a grey Calvin Klein sheath dress, with a sparkly necklace and multi-colored flats. But it's mostly just costuming. When I met a climbing partner for dinner once, without changing after work, she was astonished at my "girly" clothing--high-heeled shoes, pink shirt with ruffles on the front, etc., since she's used to seeing me in climbing pants and a tank top, or maybe jeans & a t-shirt.

It's just not really possible to "fuck the man" and get ahead in a large organization. What they're looking for is reliability, not independent thinking. (For the most part, anyway.)