Oh, ita. That sucks a lot.

It was horrible and monstrous and he told me not to cry because it wasn't fair, but I feel that the meeting itself ended constructively, even though I'm not sure I will be being managed any better come Monday. But...I have to take proactive steps around that (if he has no idea about the status of my projects, it can't be my fault, because it's not my job to report to him...I do report the status to *my* manager regularly, though). I get that now. Just like that the developer I have objectively sucks--I need to work around it. The golden team I had on the project from "hell" is no more. Moving on. Maybe I'll get a good team like that again on a future project. The core values of the company are still the same, and those are healthy and a good match for me.

Thanks, guys. I've never had a meltdown in front of a boss before. That was new and exciting and made me feel like a grownup.

And, seriously, the meeting I'd just had before that *was* new and exciting and made me feel like a grownup. I felt I'd totally gotten a handle on some of the stuff that had been slippery before, that I'd been avoiding because I couldn't see the shape of the answer--finally I had an idea of how to get the solution. And boom! I should not have had that meeting by myself. It was above my pay grade, despite the vendor having asked *me* to meet them. I totally mishandled that, counter to the company rules of vendor management (which I didn't know even existed until just now). My boss calmed himself down by the end of the talk, but he exploded at me a couple times...it was gross and ... gross.

Ack, ita.

Ugh ita, how sucktastic. I hope things get better.

between a sinus headache and me still being an angry ball of hate toward my boss, the motivation is lacking today.

I changed my password to stinky - that makes me laught each time I have to do this work. Maybe next it will be asshole. Jerkhead boss as password inspiration.

Weekend Plans people?

Tomorrow I plan to get up and weed then mow. Then I would really like to sew, but I doubt that will happen.

Sunday, church and cleaning house.

The aforementioned grandmother's birthday party tomorrow, so tonight I have to make the pie. Otherwise sitting around/sleeping and gathering boxes and sorting through my shit. I'm hoping to get out of Sunday Family Dinner, but we'll see how my mother feels -- I missed it last week.

Weekend Plans people?

Gym, hair cut-n-color, putting the house back together now that the contractors are done with the remodel. Dinner with stepdad, who is treating me to a nice steak dinner as thanks for spending an hour a day watering plants in the 100+ heat while he and my mom were out of town.

Also, working on some art for a fannish thing.

Timelies all!

Tomorrow I'm making my monthly(or so) trip to the comic book store, then I go to the library. Sunday is groceries day, and not much else.(Well, Leverage's new season starts Sunday at 8)

Once again my dad has decided he needs me to stick around for something Saturday morning, so NOT getting to go to the farmer's market.

Oh, thank god, the Saints signed Drew Brees.