I cried too!
Not about the pets, though. About my job. And because my boss was yelling at me.
Good times, good times. Like, fucking meltdown in his office.
Cut to the end, and everything's reasonably fine (the thing I did to get yelled at was done ambitiously, not shoddily--I overstepped my bounds, but I didn't drop the ball), but I have been being terribly managed AND I HOPE HE GETS THAT. Because he's getting some weird sorts of complaints about me that don't make sense. How can my manager be having a hard time getting me to do what she wants WHEN I'VE ALREADY DONE EVERYTHING SHE ASKED BEFORE SHE SAID IT?
Oh, and he yelled at me for not realising that my new developer wasn't competent. For real? I have to plan around the fact she sucks? I had better not ever be fired, let me just say.
However, the basis was, I've only been displaying flashes of brilliance since the project from hell, and he can't work out why. I told him that shit was just confusing as hell, and gave him some examples, and told him I wanted it to be like the project from hell again. I asked him how to wipe my slate clean and start again right on Monday.
And also I cried and had to wipe my nose with a paper towel.
ugh ita, sucky day. sorry.
Sorry this is sucking so much, ita !.
Ion, I am on my way to Minneapolis. Tomorrow I go to Alexandria, MN for my uncle's 85th birthday.
That is miserable and unfair, ita.
Oh ugh, ita. I hope things shape up around you!
oh, ita, I'm sorry. It sucks that you have to manage your manager while dealing with the headaches from hell.
Oh, ita. That sucks a lot.
It was horrible and monstrous and he told me not to cry because it wasn't fair, but I feel that the meeting itself ended constructively, even though I'm not sure I will be being managed any better come Monday. But...I have to take proactive steps around that (if he has no idea about the status of my projects, it can't be my fault, because it's not my job to report to him...I do report the status to *my* manager regularly, though). I get that now. Just like that the developer I have objectively sucks--I need to work around it. The golden team I had on the project from "hell" is no more. Moving on. Maybe I'll get a good team like that again on a future project. The core values of the company are still the same, and those are healthy and a good match for me.
Thanks, guys. I've never had a meltdown in front of a boss before. That was new and exciting and made me feel like a grownup.
And, seriously, the meeting I'd just had before that *was* new and exciting and made me feel like a grownup. I felt I'd totally gotten a handle on some of the stuff that had been slippery before, that I'd been avoiding because I couldn't see the shape of the answer--finally I had an idea of how to get the solution. And boom! I should not have had that meeting by myself. It was above my pay grade, despite the vendor having asked *me* to meet them. I totally mishandled that, counter to the company rules of vendor management (which I didn't know even existed until just now). My boss calmed himself down by the end of the talk, but he exploded at me a couple times...it was gross and ... gross.
