I don't think I ever thought about whether or not DH would protect me. I mean, I'm sure he would--he wouldn't run away and let me die or anything--it's just not a situation I'm anticipating.

ita, I think you need a new sleep psychologist. You don't seem to have any connection with this one, and she's not very good at communicating with you.

women want a man who can protect them

Hmm; I agree, but I think when I wrote that, my fingers went too fast -- I meant to get more into the "women are to BE protected, while the menfolks do the protecting" idea with that statement.

I want a man that protects me. And I want to protect my man. Physically, emotionally, mentally -- the way that it gets done depends on the skill set of the person, not based on gender.

D would take a bullet for me, I know. But I would much rather shove him out of the way and beat the gunman to death with his/her own leg, ya know?

Tangent (kinda): If we ever get financially settled, I really want to take krav classes. D and I agree that would be a fun date night!

You don't seem to have any connection with this one, and she's not very good at communicating with you.

I can't work out how much I'm supposed to be getting out of her. I know some of her stuff already, so this week, I came out of it with the idea of "distracting sensation" when I wake up startled, and now I have to work out what to do.

But I haven't seen the bills. I don't know what insurance covers. I should stop appointments until then. She's done nothing to convince me this is worth going deep into my own pocket for.

However I did get a call about $2K I owe a bankrupt hospital from 2007. Dear god. They didn't try very hard to get it from me when they were solvent, can't they leave me alone now? Yeah, I know, not the same them. I just can't work out how I incurred that shit, and I doubt I have 2007 records, so that means calling up insurance companies I no longer pay and asking for records.

Burrell, I watch a LOT of action movies; my brain goes there, also, having been almost raped once, I do think a lot of personal safety and how I would react and what my skills, strengths and weaknesses are. Also, D is a very slight, mild-mannered man, and I am built like an, um, brick shithouse, so I've thought about it.

Just an explanation for my worldview, not a you-offended-me statement or anything.

Also: ita !'s 2nd link -- the first photo made me literally gasp in shock so hard I choked on my iced tea. But the second pic is SUCH a good outcome. Damn.

For me it comes down to me not having much of a fight or fuck dichotomy--we just want the best possible excuses.

That makes sense, Erin. I was just musing on what you said and realized I tend to not think about DH's more aggressive side even though he does have one. As do I.

I can't work out how much I'm supposed to be getting out of her.

Not the mild aggravation she seems to put you through. I mean, she doesn't seem bad, but she doesn't seem like a good fit for you.

I need to go to bed, speaking of sleep. I haven't had a full night's sleep all week.

For me it comes down to me not having much of a fight or fuck dichotomy--we just want the best possible excuses.

HA! I love you, ita !!

Argh. After being sick for weeks and sleeping 16 hours a day, I finally feel better and need to get up for work in the morning, and lo and behold, I can't fall asleep!! Sigh.

Have some utterly bizarre light fare for your 11/11/11 morning. [link]

Aarrgh (what's the spelling of that word? I mean does it need at least two ars, but what's the stance on as (wow, I hate putting in the apostrophe in those scenarios, but that homophone is seriously unclear. Still, I'd rather swype this parenthetical than put one in. Don't hate the playa, hate the game)?

Wait, what was I annoyed about? Right, bills. Century City Hospital says I owe them $2k. They don't even exist anymore. And the charges (five visits? Seriously?) are way out of proportion for my usual out of pocket at the ER at that time. Or ever. Which means research, with companies that haven't had me on their books for four years. I am agog.

If the hospital couldn't be arsed to try and get the money from me, why are the creditors so hot for it?

Oh. Right.

Urgent ER visit underway. I'm not leaving until this nausea breaks. Haven't eaten today either. Maybe I should get them to give me juice. That's more useful than icewater.

Man, I'm bored.

eta: aurelia, your link goes to a Chinese woman covering Lady Gaga.