And because I'm trying not to make it all about me, all of the time: Liese, that was not a lot of makeup. That color looks good with your skintone.
Oz ,'First Date'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Thanks, Maria. I'm so weird about it at this point since I'm so new to it.
But also, dude? You can totally make it all about you for a while. We're all good with that. And you're not anyway, but you can.
Things never go back to the way they were, but it becomes possible to find joy, and to be able to actually enjoy it.
ND is absolutely right.
Maria, I very much identify with how you feel right now. It's very similar to how I felt (and still feel) about S. The circumstances are very different, but I recognize the emotions on a very personal level. I would try to express myself better, but this is the best I can do from my phone on a bus.
Edited, because I meant to say different, not current.
things that never bothered me (like the dark) are huge right now.
When Hubby's out of the house, I'm suddenly timid about things that don't ping me when he's a couple of rooms away. I try very hard not to think about living alone.
hold up. Lee! You officiate?
Since when?
Congratulations Juliana! How wonderful. Many happy years for both of you.
Congratulations, Juliana! Stealth wedding!
Whoa! Congratulations, Juliana! Pictures?
Congrats, Juliana!
And there are songs I'm probably never going to listen to again.
20 years, and I haven't listened to It's So Hard To Say Goodbye (I have difficulty typing the title and keeping my composure) outside of two funerals. I'll leave the room, talk madly, mutter to myself, shoot the radio, whatever it takes to get away from that song.
It's the only song I own on CD that's not on any of my iTunes installs. My completist streak is not masochistic.
I'm consumed with the sense that I am utterly alone now. I don't have my partner. And I hate it.