Lots of ~ma, Ginger.

I hope you like your therapist, Aims.

wrod.

Dude. THere's a landlord from NOLA on Judge Joe Brown right now that could probably be smonster's first landlord!

Lots of it's-nothing-ma to you, Ginger.

Aims, therapy is hard, and it is damn scary at first. But it is also amazingly helpful. I hope you and your therapist click right away.

We really did. She has very tiny feet and she gave me homework and made me call the psychiatrist in her office to make an appointment to get meds. And she said that if I can't be the nurturing one to myself right now, to call her when I need that and she would be that for me. But only when I can't do it myself.

I also have to start doing the opposite of what I *want* to do. If I want to sit and do nothing, I HAVE to at least go for a walk around the block. If I want to spend money, I have to make or find something to sell.

I really liked her a lot.

Glad it went well, Aimee. Hey, I haven't forgotten about the magazine, I just haven't got to the post office yet!

Glad the first meeting went well, Aims. I'm glad you like her.

Remember this morning, that started with me saying things about my city? Well, it's gonna end like this, as well, only with a different note.

I was taking the dog out (he's a sweetheart, but there's another thing). One of the streets was kind of empty, only me and two men walking there, each on every side of the road. One of them walked his own dog, and here's the part of their conversation I heard:

"Oh, where are you from?"
"North Carolina. You?"
"Cincinnati". (And then some laughter, and then something about bobcats, which I'm sure is a kind of a sports reference I'm a google away from understanding).

All in English, accents and all. It was just so casual, it took me by surprise. For a few minutes - as it only were me and them in the street, it was like I was in another country. As if I could just as easily get out of the house and run into one of you.

Cincinnati's sports team is the Bearcats.

NC's basketball team is the Bobcats. Could be either one.

Opposite Action, Aims!! That's a DBT thing. That I need to keep working on.

Ugh. I messed up at work. I hate being in trouble. But I caught myself starting to make excuses and took full responsibility. So yayish.

Aims, I'm glad the first meeting went well. I know how hard it is when that self-doubt and feelings of worthlessness hold you back from doing something you know is good for you. Seems to me that getting that therapist was an instinctive "do the opposite." You should ace that homework.