Oh, and Sean, hon, I totally hear you. I've spent most of my adult life to date single, but I find myself more and more wanting to be in a true partnership. And it's so hard that the wanting doesn't make it happen.
Can't even shout, Can't even cry. The Gentlemen are coming by. Looking in windows, knocking on doors. They need to take seven, and they might take yours. Can't call to mom, can't say a word. You're gonna die screaming but you won't be heard.
Dream Girl ,'Bring On The Night'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
smonster - Feb 15, 2012 2:39:31 am PST #7464 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
Tom Scola - Feb 15, 2012 2:40:46 am PST #7465 of 30001
hwæt
Sean, in case you missed my link on Facebook: [link]
ChiKat - Feb 15, 2012 3:52:31 am PST #7466 of 30001
That man was going to shank me. Over an omelette. Two eggs and a slice of government cheese. Is that what my life is worth?
I've spent most of my adult life to date single, but I find myself more and more wanting to be in a true partnership. And it's so hard that the wanting doesn't make it happen.
This.
Hil R. - Feb 15, 2012 4:29:14 am PST #7467 of 30001
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
Ugh. I overslept. I don't actually remember turning my alarm off, but I guess I did and then fell back asleep.
Polter-Cow - Feb 15, 2012 4:55:19 am PST #7468 of 30001
What else besides ramen can you scoop? YOU CAN SCOOP THIS WORLD FROM DARKNESS!
I've spent most of my adult life to date single, but I find myself more and more wanting to be in a true partnership. And it's so hard that the wanting doesn't make it happen.
Co-signed (except change "most" to "all" and remove "adult").
{{Maria}}
smonster - Feb 15, 2012 4:59:30 am PST #7469 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
Co-signed (except change "most" to "all" and remove "adult").
Well, the relationships I was in weren't the most fabulous. They ranged from "sometimes nice but not love" to "oh god, oh god, what was I thinking?!?!". That last being KBD, of course.
erikaj - Feb 15, 2012 5:25:49 am PST #7470 of 30001
"already on the kiss-cam with Karl Marx"-
I understand, you guys. And, believe me, having a ready-made answer to the "What's wrong with me?" questions. Doesn't really help at all. (Not to mention hating the thought that my whole life can be boiled down to things that went wrong that I don't even remember.And there *are* PWD that manage to do everything...why aren't I more like them? Turning the world on with my smile AND making barriers my bitch.
Topic!Cindy - Feb 15, 2012 6:19:18 am PST #7471 of 30001
What is even happening?
I'm never going to be a mom either. Rob would have been an awesome dad.
I'm so sorry, Maria. I remember old LJ conversations about you and Rob talking about having children. I hate that death robs us not only of our people, but of the dreams we shared with them. That note from Rob's player is beautiful.
When my dad passed (and it was a totally different situation at their stage in life, but his death was also sudden), my mother decided not to make any major decisions (at least any that could be avoided) for at least a year (so like selling the house, etc.). It was a choice that served her well.
I guess I'm telling you this, because of your 'never' up there. To the extent you can, just take each day as it comes, right now (or each hour, or even each minute). Your world has just been totally upended. Some doors are shut, but not all. Don't shut any on yourself, right now, if you can help it. Just keep breathing. Let tomorrow worry about itself.
sumi - Feb 15, 2012 6:25:04 am PST #7472 of 30001
Art Crawl!!!
Tearing up at the text from the young man. Incredibly sweet.
Burrell - Feb 15, 2012 7:16:41 am PST #7473 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Oh Maria! And Cindy, that was beautifully said. Just work on today, Maria, and the tomorrows will come.