Probably due to modern technology, I saw a lot fewer sappy Valentine's Day commercials and am therefore less pissed off than usual.
I wish you didn't have to face Valentine's Day so soon, Maria, but then I wish none of this had happened.
Death is your art. You make it with your hands day after day. That final gasp, that look of peace. And part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. She really wanted it. Every Slayer has a death wish. Even you.
Spike ,'Conversations with Dead People'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Ginger - Feb 14, 2012 5:27:52 pm PST #7409 of 30001
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
-t - Feb 14, 2012 5:30:32 pm PST #7410 of 30001
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
I didn't put together how precisely cruel the timing was right away, Maria. I'm extra sorry for that.
Maria - Feb 14, 2012 5:32:17 pm PST #7411 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Allow me some superficial whining for a moment... Not only is today tainted but my birthday will never be the same. I'll always know the next day is when my husband died.
Liese S. - Feb 14, 2012 5:33:48 pm PST #7412 of 30001
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
Yeah, Maria, I was just talking about that to the SO. That's just so hard.
Hil R. - Feb 14, 2012 5:34:34 pm PST #7413 of 30001
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
{{{Maria}}}
-t - Feb 14, 2012 5:34:50 pm PST #7414 of 30001
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
That's what I put together earlier today. And it sucks.
meara - Feb 14, 2012 5:37:13 pm PST #7415 of 30001
Yeah, that occurred to me this afternoon, how awful the timing is for you Maria (not that there's ever a good time, but...)
le nubian - Feb 14, 2012 5:37:49 pm PST #7416 of 30001
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
hardly superficial Maria.
like -t, I was thinking the same thing about your birthday. forgetting about February 14th. I had forgotten what day it was until around noon.
sarameg - Feb 14, 2012 5:38:54 pm PST #7417 of 30001
Oh honey. I knew that. I just hadn't put it together. That really fucking sucks.
§ ita § - Feb 14, 2012 5:39:43 pm PST #7418 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Shit Maria, I was just working that out. I'm so sorry. I hope this can subside to a dull roar for you as soon as possible, and V Day at least can be a day of reminiscence rather than full blown sorrow.
I don't like being single
And being disappointed or upset because you haven't achieved something you value is perfectly...expectable? Reasonable? Everything like that. Thinking you're a bad person because you haven't achieved something you value is...well, knowing it's a logical flaw isn't going to make the pain go away. But there's no correlation between "good person" and "in a relationship". Hitler was a vegetariansignificant other.
And I know there's no way to talk you out of what you *feel*, but that doesn't mean I won't try and alter that you *know*.