Oh honey. I knew that. I just hadn't put it together. That really fucking sucks.
It's all about choices, Faith. The ones we make, and the ones we don't. Oh, and the consequences. Those are always fun.
Angelus ,'Smile Time'
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sarameg - Feb 14, 2012 5:38:54 pm PST #7417 of 30001
§ ita § - Feb 14, 2012 5:39:43 pm PST #7418 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Shit Maria, I was just working that out. I'm so sorry. I hope this can subside to a dull roar for you as soon as possible, and V Day at least can be a day of reminiscence rather than full blown sorrow.
I don't like being single
And being disappointed or upset because you haven't achieved something you value is perfectly...expectable? Reasonable? Everything like that. Thinking you're a bad person because you haven't achieved something you value is...well, knowing it's a logical flaw isn't going to make the pain go away. But there's no correlation between "good person" and "in a relationship". Hitler was a vegetariansignificant other.
And I know there's no way to talk you out of what you *feel*, but that doesn't mean I won't try and alter that you *know*.
Sean K - Feb 14, 2012 5:43:45 pm PST #7419 of 30001
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty
well, knowing it's a logical flaw isn't going to make the pain go away. But there's no correlation between "good person" and "in a relationship".
I know, and I appreciate that.
Although now I'm wondering if annexing the Sudetenland would help me get a date.
Zenkitty - Feb 14, 2012 5:43:59 pm PST #7420 of 30001
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
Maria, that's neither superficial nor whining. It's dreadful timing for something dreadful. I'm so sorry.
JZ - Feb 14, 2012 5:45:22 pm PST #7421 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
{{{Maria}}} I was connecting those dates, too, and desperately hating the unjustness of it.
Nora Deirdre - Feb 14, 2012 5:45:58 pm PST #7422 of 30001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
Maria, that is just the big suck cherry on a mountain of suck and shit. Ugh.
billytea - Feb 14, 2012 5:48:36 pm PST #7423 of 30001
You were a wrong baby who grew up wrong. The wrong kind of wrong. It's better you hear it from a friend.
Although now I'm wondering if annexing the Sudetenland would help me get a date.
Let the record show that Sean's romantic life demands Liebensraum.
Sean K - Feb 14, 2012 5:48:39 pm PST #7424 of 30001
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty
Maria, that's neither superficial nor whining.
Yes, this. I'm the only one being superficial in here right now. You're being perfectly ficial.
WindSparrow - Feb 14, 2012 5:51:47 pm PST #7425 of 30001
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Allow me some superficial whining for a moment... Not only is today tainted but my birthday will never be the same. I'll always know the next day is when my husband died.
Not superficial. At all. Grief is an immeasurable, unfathomable burden. The hell of it is, no matter how much we wish we could carry part or all of it for you, it is impossible. But we can be at your side with a gentle hand at those inevitable times when you stumble under the load.
I hope that one day you can see it as his will triumphing over the winding down of his body long enough to get to see one last birthday with you. But yeah, right now it sucks beyond the telling of it.
sarameg - Feb 14, 2012 5:52:21 pm PST #7426 of 30001
Maria, come 2013, if you aren't somewhere awesome, please let me have you here. We'll incorporate you into my my neighbor tri-some of bdays, which we're doing tomorrow. Hell, if you want to, show up at 3610 at 6:30. I realize that is probably impossible, but I'll be thinking of you.