I'm so sorry askye. I understand that you feel responsible, but honestly there was nothing you could have done. There are things we sometimes just can't fix. Many hugs and loving thoughts.
Anya: It's lovely! I wish it was mine! Oh like you weren't all thinking the same thing. Giles: I'm fairly certain I wasn't.
'The Killer In Me'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Laura - Nov 27, 2011 4:37:00 am PST #3472 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
JZ - Nov 27, 2011 4:42:41 am PST #3473 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
I'm so sorry, askye. Poor Maddie, and poor you. I'm glad Will is on his way to be with you.
Nora Deirdre - Nov 27, 2011 4:54:20 am PST #3474 of 30001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
I am so, so sorry Askye. Glad Will will be there soon. Take care of you.
askye - Nov 27, 2011 4:59:57 am PST #3475 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
I finally got in touch with Mom. I'm feeling a little better talking to her.
Last night I kept thinking I'd wake up and find her dead or thinking other catastrophic thoughts. I do that all the time - think the worst - and it never happens. Except this time it did so that's throwing me a bit.
brenda m - Nov 27, 2011 5:21:14 am PST #3476 of 30001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Oh hon. But you did see she was ailing, and you tried to get her help and care for her the best you could. I'm so sorry you didn't have longer with her, and she you.
DavidS - Nov 27, 2011 5:44:34 am PST #3477 of 30001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
I'm so sorry, asyke. That's sad and stressful.
lisah - Nov 27, 2011 6:23:35 am PST #3478 of 30001
Punishingly Intricate
askye, I'm so sorry. I know it's hard not to blame yourself. I've been there with losing a pet young. But it's clear that you loved Maddie and you provided her with the best care you could. Take care of yourself.
askye - Nov 27, 2011 6:39:52 am PST #3479 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
Will is here, I'm feeling a little better. Dean keeps running around and wants to be petted a lot. Will and I are going to get some lunch and then he's going to help me with some stuff around the house I've put off.
I'm going to take care of myself today and go to work tomorrow.
smonster - Nov 27, 2011 6:40:09 am PST #3480 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
aksye, how devastating. I am so, so sorry. You loved Maddie and you did your best. Sometimes bad things happen even when we do our best, and it's not our fault. Glad Will is there to take care of you.
Connie Neil - Nov 27, 2011 7:06:45 am PST #3481 of 30001
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