I love the idea of treating gut flora like well-loved pets.

I find myself thinking of the gut collective as Kaylee. They live to eat yummy food and pursue reproductive activities. And they help keep their vessel running, given the right materials.

I find myself thinking of the gut collective as Kaylee. They live to eat yummy food and pursue reproductive activities. And they help keep their vessel running, given the right materials.

OMG I LOVE THIS.

Bonny, thanks. I'm ok now. I stopped crying, and I'm at a restaurant, getting lunch. She didn't have an appointment after me fwiw, but most therapists I have been to are very strict about ending the session on time, regardless of what is happening. There is a movie theater next to the restaurant I'm in. I'm tempted to see Iron Man 3, but I would rather see it with TCG. I should look to see if there is anything playing that TCG wouldn't want to see.

I find myself thinking of the gut collective as Kaylee. They live to eat yummy food and pursue reproductive activities. And they help keep their vessel running, given the right materials.

GENIUS.

That was actually going to be my next suggestion, sj. Finding something to distract you that isn't jarring or upsetting.

A nice, calm movie would be good. Save Ironman for TCG and a time when your system isn't jangled.

I love food. I love to eat. I love to cook when I have time. Two things. I learned from dieting 1) I need less food than I think I do. 2) ungood food means I eat more - taste matters that much, so. As little over processed food as possible

I can't diet - restrictions make me cranky. However, the more often I eat the less likely I am to overeat.

I don't hate exercise, just hate being a hamster. If there is a point, I can do it. So. The garden and walking around my town is where I get most of my exercise . The squat challenge is just because , I blame my sister she started it. It is interesting. It gets my blood moving in the morning ( not that I think anyone should do it, but it doesn't hurt your knees if you do them correctly

sj, I'm sorry your session left you feeling so bad.

I'm giving all that energy to something else in my life. I'm gonna live this life, in this body, now.

I envy you your ability to decide to be content in your body. I have given up on dieting, did that a couple years ago, and promptly lost 50 pounds. But it isn't enough. I cannot stop hating this body, cannot stop feeling as though I have been imprisoned in it. That 50 pounds gone was a slap in the face. Furthermore I feel like the connection between cause and effect in my universe is not tethered correctly. I need logic to work so that I can figure things out, but I don't live in that world. The only thing that makes sense to me is cats.

I actually find action packs movies and tv very calming when I'm angry or upset. The radio in my car was playing loud, angry music on the way to the restaurant.

Aw. Then, go forth and be bombarded! I love the bass pounding my chest during action movies. Enjoy!

I remember reading a breast cancer survivor's story years ago where she talked about being oppressed by everyone telling her to 'rest.' Her conclusion was that sometimes dancing _is_ the healing.

I'm glad you are feeling a bit better and are taking care of yourself, sj.

WS, we are one in body hatred, although mine is more about my disability than my weight on most days, but weight is becoming more and more an issue to me. In previous appointments my therapist was shocked at how strong my body hatred is.