Yes, but on days like today it's tough. Fine, I go to the gym 5 days a week, but am I actually working to my full capacity each time? Yes, I'm uprooting my life and moving from the place I've spent the majority of my life, but am I pushing hard enough to get out of here as quickly as possible?
Unless you are a professional athlete so that your living and your team depend on you being at 100% all the time, just getting off your butt is a win. Modest amounts of exercise done consistently are of value to your health. As for going full throttle in other areas of your life, it seems to me that no engine can sustain running redline indefinitely. You sound like you are feeling stuck, like you are getting ready to gnaw a limb off to get out of some trap. But if the trap is your expectations of our (or any other friends') expectations of you... I dunno... It just seems like a recursion loop, or a Chinese finger trap.
Sometimes drugs just make you not care that you hurt.
Or make the pain really fun.
After taking a second dose, I'm feeling a bit better.
Vulnerability isn't weakness. Self-compassion isn't self-pity. Beating yourself up isn't discipline. Grief isn't failure. Doubt isn't betrayal.
This is beautiful, smonster.
nice , smonster.
I have a friend who is getting divorced. After years and years of horrible relationship with someone that treated her with no respect. And even though your circumstnces are different, I'll tell ou the same thing I say to her. Yes, you are making a change. Is it the right one - it is the right one for now. are you going fast enough forward? for now - yes. Making a change is giving you room to find what and where you want. Right now the only thing you can do is get past the couldof wouldof shouldof space.
On my phone. Reading everything. Crying, for lots of reasons. Love you all so damned much.
Oh Maria. It's so hard to believe when you're so down, but these fine people are right. You are loved. You are strong. You are moving forward.
Maria everyone is right.
I think, we get so hard on ourselves in a way we would never be on someone else. It's like our brains tell us (very wrongly) that we don't deserve the compassion and kindness that someone else does.
The Self Care Golden Rule should be:
Treat yourself as you would treat others.
I love my wise Buffistas so very much.
I'm feeling a bit down myself tonight. No reason--everything is going really well at school--but just feeling a little disconnected. It sucks when ND and I go through a long stretch of working opposite schedules.
(Obviously not comparing to your situation, Maria.)
