Oh my goodness. I think I found my wedding present for Tim.

They're great, right?

I can't decide whether to just get Kato, or Kato and Chloe.

I am supposed to make at least fourteen. I'm an idiot.

But does it mean you get to use a kitchen torch?

Sorry the procedure was more fraught than expected, askye.

Yay new apartment, sumi!

A beachy honeymoon sounds good.

Today was gorgeous here. I spent a lot of it gardening and just hanging out outside.

I can't decide whether to just get Kato, or Kato and Chloe.

It's a tough call. I have thought hard about having a portrait of Bartleby with Cagney. I don't think I will, but individual pieces are definitely likely.

eta: At least Kato and Chloe were together at some point. Having them together in a portrait seems normal to me.

Cagney and Bartleby's ghost just seems...not right.

yay on the new place, sumi!

And askye, glad to hear you are recovering well from the procedure.

I need to boil some eggs for Sunday. And somehow plan for both having Easter at home or possibly at the kids' grandfather's house. OMG what is it with these McNalley men and their refusal to just nail down a plan!

But does it mean you get to use a kitchen torch?

I own a kitchen torch. I am hoping my big refill can of fuel doesn't run out at this rate though.

Fire pretty.

At least Kato and Chloe were together at some point. Having them together in a portrait seems normal to me.

That makes sense, and yet I can't put my finger on why I'm leaning more towards just Kato. Hmmm. (Plus, she's running a sale this weekend, so I ought to make up my mind now so I can order it.)

I really like the new place. The apartment is nicely laid out - has really lovely light and the building is very sturdy. I just got a good feeling about it so I'm extremely happy that I got it.

The older I get, the less patient I am with plans constantly in flux. I'm fine with spontaneous ideas, I'm flexible when plans change, I'm just sick of plans that can never be finalized because there's always someone who doesn't cooperate. Someone won't wake up on time, someone didn't leave on time, someone decided they don't like the restaurant, someone got drunk and threw a fit.

Mine is a family of divas, none of whom think they are at all unreasonable, all of whom fall completely apart at the suggestion that anything might be their fault. I spent my life sitting quietly waiting with a book while the chaos around me settled down and then going along with whatever the hell we ended up doing, and that was fine, until I became old enough to be expected to speak up and have some input in what was going to happen. I had no real desire to do that, because I didn't want to argue; I didn't want anything as much as I wanted everyone to just shut up. But I have a lot of practice at being the family therapist: I smoothed ruffled feathers, I helped people get perspective and calm down, I facilitated everyone's relationships. And I'm sick of it! I want this dysfunctional sprawl of neurotics to get their collective shit together, cooperate, agree on a fucking plan and stick to it, even if it isn't precisely what every individual might totally prefer. I don't know how I became an adult.

You know what I really want? I want to be able to dig in my heels, demand something, and get what I want. I want to ask for something and get it, and feel no guilt for it and not have to explain or apologize. I want to be able to get upset and get an apology or some comfort or some help. I'm not sure I'd even know how to react if someone actually gave me that.

Pardon my rant. Can't really say shit like this elsewhere.

and yet I can't put my finger on why I'm leaning more towards just Kato.

Steph, when I get feelings like that, I go with them. YMMV.

sumi, I'm glad you got the place that you like!