Hi, all. I visited my folks and stayed the night last night; home again now.
I didn't change my profile picture yesterday because I'm lazy. But I poste slews of equality stuff all the time, so whatevs. Anyone who knows me knows I am an outspoken ally.
Mental health segue: I'm thinking about going to see a shrink again. I don't want to. I don't want to take medication again. I don't want to do talk therapy again. I don't want to have to. But I'm really depressed and I think maybe I have to.
Zen, I feel you, I truly do. I am working on major stuff right now and it's huge and hard and scary...but I WANT to change. If you ever need anything, feel like you can get ahold of me. Support is so different for people, and my god, is it hard to talk about some stuff...again, and again, and again. But The support I am getting from DH, my fam, my friends, my 'Ffistas...it's invaluable.
Sometimes just knowing you CAN call or email someone and say, "I'm feeling shitty. I don't want to talk about it right now, but I just need to talk to someone about something. Or get out of the house and my own brain."
bonny, I sleep with a flat squishy pillow over my head. I go to sleep that way, with it smashed over my eyes and just my nose and mouth out. I look insane, but sleep masks are uncomfortable and still not dark enough. I need a cool, dark room with airflow.
ION...SO. My darling husband to whom I introduced Supernatural when we started dating -- I would be watching a current ep, and he's be noodling on the net and ask a question or something, and kinda thought it was a cute-boy lame show, got HOOKED seriously. Like, he's watched all the seasons 2 or 3 times now, has had a serious man lust for Dean's leather jacket. (And Sam's snap-button shirts,too.) He was out with my little sister Saturday and casually mentioned this lust to her, and she mentioned that she had a brown leather jacket, a men's large, that she bought at Wilson's leather probably 15 years ago.
DH didn't think a thing of it, but sis dragged it out, and it's all distressed and soft AND LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE DEAN"S JACKET; it's maybe 3 inches shorter. She doesn't wear it anymore, has a leather coat she adores, and she gave it to me to give to DH last night. This is so geeky, but I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR HIM!!! SQUEEEE!
My sis is fab, and I adore her.
Strix, thank you very much. It means a lot. Also, I am excited to hear about D's reaction to his Dean jacket!
Strix - wow! I too cannot wait to hear about D's reaction to the jacket.
Fingers crossed: I may have an apartment. She is checking references today.
Fingers and toes crossed. I've been thinking about you a lot, sumi and wondering if there was anything we can do beyond being supportive.
Thank you, Sail. It's awful but I am surrounded by wonderful people. Especially you guys. You've definitely been with me through the best things and the worst. So thank you.
My therapist called back. She's aggravated that I sounded aggravated on the phone yesterday. Apparently she was still on vacation until today, which is why she didn't get back to me earlier. Of course, her cellphone is her work phone, so she probably could have called me back even if she wasn't back yet, and she never changed her voicemail to say when she would be away and the message did say she returns phone calls within 24 hours. I'm going in for an appointment tomorrow, because apparently I'm too chicken to just say that I think I need to find a new therapist.
Oil guy is gone. He had to replace two parts, but he doesn't do billing, so I'm not sure how much that just cost me yet.
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When you go tomorrow, no matter how hard it is you should talk about your desire for a new therapist. If she is a good therapist, she will provide you with recommendations. Or maybe talk through the why and maybe you can find a workable common ground. Or, she will show that she isn't a good therapist and it will be easier to walk away.
sumi - fingers crossed!
When you go tomorrow, no matter how hard it is you should talk about your desire for a new therapist. If she is a good therapist, she will provide you with recommendations. Or maybe talk through the why and maybe you can find a workable common ground. Or, she will show that she isn't a good therapist and it will be easier to walk away.
I know I should. It just goes against my nature to avoid confrontation at all costs.
Forgive me for being a bit of an asshole about this, but if your practice is in dealing with people who emotionally need professional guidance and assistance, would't it behoove you to communicate a bit better regarding when you are out of touch, out of town, and/or can't be reached?
For fuck's sake, this is not rocket science, change the fucking voicemail message.
Forgive me for being a bit of an asshole about this, but if your practice is in dealing with people who emotionally need professional guidance and assistance, would't it behoove you to communicate a bit better regarding when you are out of touch, out of town, and/or can't be reached?
Thank you! That was how I was looking at it, but I was wondering if I was being too harsh. She's never starts my session on time (but always ends it on time), she brings in photo copies of things for me to read (but can never find all the pages and spends half the session talking to me while trying to find them). Honestly, I feel like a jerk not liking her because she is scattered and disorganized because I'm both of those things, but I'm not the therapist.
