bonny, if sleep is more important than short term aesthetics... cardboard and wide painter's tape to block the windows.

I have left two messages for my therapist over the last two days to try to reschedule my appointment from Friday to another day because I'm not going to be in town on Friday. She has yet to call me back. I'm really torn about what to do about her. On the one hand I find her helpful, but on the other hand she is scattered, disorganized, and unreliable.

I'm really leaning that way, smonster. Had I known how much darkening the room would effect me, I'd have pulled out the cardboard ages ago. I'm pretty good with a glue gun. Maybe I can cover some cardboard in fabric to make it more presentable.

I'm wondering what I am going to do in the summer when I need to have the windows open.

I'm really torn about what to do about her. On the one hand I find her helpful, but on the other hand she is scattered, disorganized, and unreliable.

Tough decision, sj. It's hard to find a therapist that you click with. I stuck with a whackjob of a therapist for years because we got along so well.

What's the difference between being depressed and feeling sorry for yourself? Because right now. I don't even know what I'm going to do next.

Tough decision, sj. It's hard to find a therapist that you click with. I stuck with a whackjob of a therapist for years because we got along so well.

Yeah, it's exhausting trying to find good one.

What's the difference between being depressed and feeling sorry for yourself?

For me, they kind of go hand in hand.

I'm hoping my sleep issues these last few days are because I haven't been taking one of my meds. I got my refill today - may it kick in quickly.

I got some chicken burgers from Costco over the weekend and ate one because I was starving. It wasn't until half way through eating it that I realized it has red pepper in it. Red pepper doesn't sit well with me and not what I needed with this stupid headache. WHY didn't I read the package first?!?!? Now I'm just marking time before I can take more headache meds and try to sleep.

It is amazing how much more energy I have with less pain. I had gotten use a constant pain level of 3 or 4 on the 1-10 scale. I went to the doctor when that escalated to 6 and above. But with the pain med I now have pain levels of 1 or 2. And I sleep better and can exercise longer (Not because the exercise hurt before, but because it wore me out more quickly). Low pain levels are good. Zero would be even better, but I'll take what I can get.

Low pain levels are good. Zero would be even better, but I'll take what I can get.

That is awesome, Typo Boy. I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better and able to do more. The sudden absence of chronic pain is truly a wonder.

What's the difference between being depressed and feeling sorry for yourself?

When I'm depressed, I vacillate between feeling sorry for myself and hating myself for being such a wuss. Sometimes I multitask and do both at the same time. That's usually all I can do when I'm depressed, is those two things. Oh, and numb out. So make it three.

I'm not even kidding when I say that focusing on compassion for myself (not the same as self-pity) is making a huge difference in my life.

Depression makes the sorry for yourself nine times worse.

Bonny, try the cardboard. If it's as effective as I think it will be, then get the blackout curtains in time for summer.