Strix, I'm sorry for the problems you've been having. I used CBT during the break-up of my first marriage, and found it to be helpful. I'm not sure about resources, but this book is a good CBT manual: [link]
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No judgment, Strix. Ever.
I have nothing either, but you may want to ping vwbug and smonster. They both have experience with DBT, which does incorporate CBT.
Thanks, BT. I will check it out.
I am working through "The Mindful Way through Depression" by Williams, Teasdale, Segal and Kabat-Zinn, and listening to podcasts another Buffista suggested until I can get an appointment.
Strix, I have no help, but I care a lot about you, and I'm glad you have such strong and loving support around you. No judgment, no blame. May you get everything you need, dear girl.
I've been in contact with smonster, but I will hit up VW.
Sigh...I reconciled myself to be a lifelong chronic depressive and insomniac, but I never thought my dr.prescribed meds would lead to addition.
I am a muddle of feeling right now, and they are all not-so-great feelings. How did I end up here?
Y'all are the best. THE BEST.
I see a weak ray of hope, now...
Strix - my best to you . Wish you the best and glad that you do have friends ( and family ) in meatspace that care.
Strix, much love to you.
Strix, I'm doing CBT right now, but it hasn't really been long enough for me to be much help to you. Still, if you need anything my profile address is available. No judging. I'm glad you have people around you who care and support you.
Hugs, strix. Nothing to add to what everyone else said, but love and support.