I had no idea what a third of the stuff was
You're doing pretty well. I'd say the saleswoman earned her commission on me, except apparently they don't work on commission. I tried on maybe 20 lipsticks to buy 5? Probably more. Polgara was very patient.
Anne, I realised when I got this boss that I'd had quite the run of bad bosses. Maybe one honest to goodness good boss in almost 20 years of employment (although one was bad in my favour). It was a really weird sensation to have it stop, and in fact, I had nightmares about it not really being true. So I totally get where you're coming from. It's total conditioning, and it's going to take the world not ending a couple times before the new real is really real.
Thank you, ita ! I just wish it wasn't taking so long to undo the conditioning. There are still times when I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, and that I'll be hauled into a conference room and told what a crappy job I'm doing.
Jilli, can you play the caring is sharing game?
Why yes, yes I can play that game!
Oh, Anne, yeah, that's hard! But yay for it being no big. Your brain will catch up!
I totally have that kind of brain, too. Today we went to buy our new SUV. (So sweet, 2007 Honda Pilot! AND this weekend we picked up our other new vehicle, a Dodge Grand Caravan!) Anyway, we paid cash, the whole process went very smoothly, we got a great deal. We knew we had the money going in, no financing, no haggling. AND YET? On the way to physically get the car, my brane was all, OMG what if we crash this car now? OMG what if I crash the new car on the way home?
I got there and there was a delay while they cleaned it up, and I was sitting in the lobby waiting, and my brane went, OMG they're not going to give me the car after all and I already gave them the money!
Yeah. Lizard brain fear response knows not the logic of, yeah I'm in a good situation right now.
In other news, I have a really sweet car!
Lizard brain fear response knows not the logic of, yeah I'm in a good situation right now.
That is so true. And I know it clings hard to fears that I know that are irrational, and it clings hard.
Also, yay for sweet car!
Yay for awesome cars and awesome bosses.
StW replied. I was right, he's been pulling away because he doesn't want a serious relationship. Well, now I know. I'm okay, just disappointed and tired.
{{{{{smonster}}}}} His loss.
Well, that sucks, smonster, but agreed it's best you know. Give yourself some time to heal.
