So I haven't seen my therapist in a bit, I was supposed to see her last week (and saw her 2 weeks before that) but I think she's been sick. I need to call tomorrow to try and figure out about rescheduling. I think I'm either getting hypomanic or having extreme anxiety. I really need some objective opinion on this. I see my shrink next Tuesday so I'll see what he says then.

When mattress shopping, I lay on each one for 10-15 minutes, like they recommend. On the Tempurpedic, I could feel my body realigning and popping back into place. One day, it will be mine. Or whatever even more awesome thing they dream up.

Nora, I hope the Z-pack works quickly for you and the Pearls fend off any unpleasant side effects.

I've done the dishes, written my daily log for work, and updated my timesheet. I wanted to update my budget software tonight, but that will have to wait. Time for shower and heating pad, time to turn away from the seductive internet. And keep my fingers crossed that the Heels keep their lead over Duke on the Devils' home turf.

eta x-post with askye - wishing you calm~ma and a quick appointment.

Thanks, everyone. While nothing exceedingly horrible is wrong, my life is hanging so much, if it were a computer, I'd be wanting to close all tabs and reboot right now.(Although the book is getting better...it's just, well, everything else. Because I don't get to backspace out most of it.) And if Social Security doesn't stop jerking me around, I don't even...

Now the sleepy meds are kicking in so I'm hyper and sleepy, hopefully this means I'll go to bed soon

While nothing exceedingly horrible is wrong, my life is hanging so much, if it were a computer, I'd be wanting to close all tabs and reboot right now.

My sistah.

smonster - sleep well -- my reaction when not getting enough sleep is 1) to kill everyone that is interfering with sleep 2) think the entire world is incredibly stupid and 3) think everything is a problem. So not getting enough sleep - yeah that could be a big reason for not being able to get up and deal .

best of luck to everyone - it feels like it has been a hard winter . Glad we have some bright spots

not messing with beth. uh uh.

I hope this morning's better for you, smonster. Chronic pain and a bad bed can make even a full night's sleep less than restorative.

Sj, remember to 'fridge the beer!

Right! Fridge the beer!!

I still didn't sleep great, but I managed to get up at 6:20 after hitting snooze only twice. I changed my alarm to a duck quacking and labeled it "wake the duck up." Because I'm hilarious. Anyway, I'm about to get out the door, so yay.

erika and bonny, I hope life reboots itself for the better soon. I wish I could do more.

So last night, this happened. I call D, we chat briefly, then I say, "Really, I just wanted to pull a Lionel Ritchie."

Silence.

Me: You still breathing?
D: ...yes. Am I supposed to guess which song?
Me: No, you're supposed to make a random generic comment and then I'll tell you.
D: Okay...
Me: I just called to say I love you.

So that's out there. I didn't want to say it for the first time on Valentine's Day. He didn't say it back, but I could tell he was really touched and I'm not sweating it. In his own time. Plus, this morning he sent me a link to an article about the Blue Devils beating the Tar Heels with the subject line "assholes," so that's almost as good.