Hi Hil. I do have one thought. It seems like shopping in a timely manner is tough on you - which given your medical issues make sense. Are there any places in your service area that can deliver decent vegan food? Both actual vegan places, and places that include vegan choices on their menus? Also are there any grocery delivery services in you area. If you had a backup way of getting food when you just don't have the spoons for shopping, it sounds like that would make life easier.
Also, dry goods are pretty easy to get on-line. Would ordering your noodles and dry packaged dinners and stuff like that on-line make your life any easier, even if you still had to fetch fresh and frozen stuff in person? I'm sort of guessing that the places where you get your fresh food have the dry goods, so it would not really save any trips. ON the other hand if you could keep plenty of dry goods on hand, you could at least eat them when out of fresh food. And your in person trips would involve a shorter time in the store and fewer things to carry. So maybe still a win.
On dealing with your MOther I have nothing, other than I hope you can avoid any self-blaming which you already know.
Are there any places in your service area that can deliver decent vegan food? Both actual vegan places, and places that include vegan choices on their menus? Also are there any grocery delivery services in you area.
Nope. The best I can get delivered is spaghetti with marinara, or cheeseless pizza (but I don't really trust that -- last time I ordered cheeseless pizza with vegetables, there was a slice of pepperoni mixed into the toppings.)
If I'd needed to make dinner tonight with what I had at home, I could have, but I wanted something that didn't involve cooking -- just microwaving or eating straight from the package.
Hil, it does sound like your Mom was doing this just for herself.
In other news that's not really related other than that it's really irritating me, I've got four radio stations preset in my car, and I flip back and forth among them. Two of them have just changed over to all Christmas music.
We had the weirest radio stuff going on last night. On the way back into Chicago on the skyway the book on tape ended so we started flipping around to see if we could get the game (NFL) on. We did not. We got a CFL game. And then another station in Quebecois french. And then what should have been WBBM was some kind of nature program.
But no Xmas music, so there's that.
Hil, I support your dinner choices (mine last night was brownies) and your frustration with your mother (my mom still frets over not challenging the cutoff date which gave me another year of nursery school, but I'm sure I will never ever hear apologies for the cruel things she said to me after I came out).
~ma to you, Shir. And I'm glad your sister and friends are okay.
It's like it was entirely about her -- she wanted to apologize on her terms, and we were just props for her scene.
That could honestly be what's going on. Are/were you having the weird mental dichotomy where part of you wants to say, well, here's a gold star for at least fucking *trying,* but the other part of you wants to go HOLY SHIT HOW DO YOU NOT SEE THIS?!?
That's so ridiculously frustrating. Does it help that at least your sister is in it with you, that she can validate that yes, you aren't crazy and your mother really DID do and say the things she claims to not remember?
