Oh, Sean, my heart aches for you and for everyone who knew and loved Tim. I'm so, so sorry.
I don't know how to say it, but I'll be okay. It hurts, but I've done a lot of work for a while, so I feel strong enough to handle it. If it had been a couple of years ago, I could not have said the same.
That being said, still a total wreck.
I totally get that. You've done good work and it will stand you in good stead, but it is awful beyond the telling of it that you will have to rely on it in this way.