askye, what they said; you're doing everything right to take care of yourself. You have a great support system and you're using them. That's amazing and it shows how much progress you really have made.
Gunn: Well, how horrible is this thing? Lorne: I haven't read the Book of Revelations lately, but if I was searching for adjectives, I'd probably start there.
'Hell Bound'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Zenkitty - Aug 27, 2012 8:11:16 am PDT #19454 of 30001
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
smonster - Aug 27, 2012 8:17:11 am PDT #19455 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
Absolutely, askye. I know it sucks and it's disheartening, but you are handling this well.
askye - Aug 27, 2012 8:25:44 am PDT #19456 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
Thanks for all your support it means a lot to me.
I saw the same person I talked to this morning. I guess he's like a crisis counselor. He was really nice and he'd talked to my shrink, who is concerned because I seemed to be doing so well when I was there before. He's also going to talk to my new therapist. She was in session, otherwise he would have introduced us.
Main thing he told me - I'm really hard on myself. This is something I'm hearing a lot lately from different sources so I guess I need to actually pay attention to that.
It was good to talk to him and he helped me get a plan of action: not think about work, cry as much as I need to, and come to my appointment tomorrow. Also we got side tracked, but I think he was encouraging me to watch guilty pleasure tv.
I do need to call the temp agency back but I keep putting that off but I won't put it off for much longer. So that's what I'm doing
Strix - Aug 27, 2012 8:32:38 am PDT #19457 of 30001
A dress should be tight enough to show you're a woman but loose enough to flee from zombies. — Ginger
askye, brain chemistry is fucked yo. You wouldn't feel guilty if you, say, liver levels messed up and caused you distress.
You're taking the steps you need, and that is HEALTHY. And isn't it so much different than the non-action you might have taken a few years ago? You can get through this, and your counselor sounds very sensible!
All the best to you, dear.
smonster - Aug 27, 2012 8:38:31 am PDT #19458 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.
Sounds like a good plan. And yes, watch something mindless and fun. Coddle yourself.
le nubian - Aug 27, 2012 8:54:05 am PDT #19459 of 30001
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
guilty pleasure tv.
my goodness. if only you could find a place on the Internet where people ALSO liked to watch tv AND talk about it.
askye - Aug 27, 2012 9:00:42 am PDT #19460 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
I'm watching America's Top Model. the first episode of the new cycle.
And I went and got a cupcake before I came home. German Chocolate and it was really yummy.
Liese S. - Aug 27, 2012 9:01:12 am PDT #19461 of 30001
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
Good job.
JenP - Aug 27, 2012 9:03:46 am PDT #19462 of 30001
Nice!
sj - Aug 27, 2012 9:17:31 am PDT #19463 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
askye, so much ~ma headed your way. I'm really impressed with how on top of everything you are. You are very self aware and are doing what you need to to get the help you require, and you should be very proud of yourself for that.
Gronk. Home now. I should probably go to the market at some point...