Pix, sorry if I implied that flowers were not a good idea or would not be welcomed. I do think flowers (or something else beautiful) would mean a lot, but it's hard for me not to zoom straight to the practical.

Also, {{{you}}}. Even without invoking the FPC, that's a lot to deal with.

Oh Anne, I wasn't offended. It is a good suggestion. And thanks--the waiting is hard. Every day I wonder if this will be the day I have to take him in. I'm grateful to have had this time to be with him and say goodbye, but the constant low-level of anxiety is really exhausting.

Am also down with something useful for Deena, and maybe something to brighten her day, too.

Slept a lot, as usual. I'm feeling kind of overwhelmed at the moment. I have laundry to do, work to do, budget stuff, and I'd like to go to a pumpkin carving party tonight. I haven't seen StW in a couple of weeks. I know he's super busy, but my insecurities are working overtime. I'm bracing myself for an eventual text, or maybe he'll just fade away. I don't know. I'm done asking if he wants to get together, it's on him now. Sucks. And I had a weird dream last night that involved evacuations and wedding planning and I wanted a labradorite tiara, but we had to keep the wedding planning secret from StW, because we'd been only been dating 3 months. Thanks, subconscious. I was trying not to go there.

Ooo, xposty. How about flowers nowish, and that will give us time to get money together and figure out what a good practical gift would be?

{{{{{Pix}}}}}

I just keep hopeful that each time I step on a plane he might still be there when I get home.

Smonster, I really like that idea. I will buy some upfront from all of us--whoever collects money ultimately can just transfer a bit to contribute to them once we are good to go. I just need an address.

{{smonster}} sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed, and lonely about StW. I'm thinking of you often, especially with Halloween coming up. I have NO PLANS for Halloween. This is a travesty! C&J are going to be in NY, and with you and T&G living out of state now, and many of the folks in The Compound otherwise occupied, and France kept me from thinking about it until just recently, I find myself at a loss. I know, I know, the mother of all first world problems, but you know how much I love Halloween. Just missing you.

{{Pix & ND}} It's so hard, losing a pet, and all the uncertainty that leads up to the end.

Smonster, I really like that idea. I will buy some upfront from all of us--whoever collects money ultimately can just transfer a bit to contribute to them once we are good to go. I just need an address.

I've got an address where I sent her something last December. (I was getting rid of a PlayStation that I never used, and she bought it as a Christmas present for her kids.) She said in an email then that they were thinking about moving, but I don't know if they did or not.

I know, I know, the mother of all first world problems, but you know how much I love Halloween. Just missing you.

I know! I miss you, too! I have a kickass costume and I'm not sure where I'm going to wear it. I don't know who's going to Frenchmen, and I'm not going by myself. Making new traditions is hard.

Pix, as soon as I have a response with an address, I'll forward it to you. As far as flowers go, I would maybe stay away from very strongly smelling ones, since I know she has some allergies, but I am not sure what specifically bothers her other than lavender.

I can do the paypal collecting for whatever we decide to do later at my profile addy.