I'm sitting on my porch, watching the rain, drinking wine and fake smoking. And listening to bitter chick music. I heard from StW and I'm back to being upset and angry, at myself and at him. I emailed him back and said pretty much all the stuff I'd been wanting to say for a year. I may regret it later, but I don't think I will. It needed saying.

{{{smonster}}} How are you doing physically?

My arm still really hurts if I stretch it out. My hip has been hurting quite a bit, and stretching hasn't helped, and I haven't filled my flexerl prescription yet. The ABs are messing with my stomach a bit, but I was warned and have been taking probiotics.

So... been better, been worse?

Smonster, I'm sorry you are angry at yourself. I think speaking up is good for you. At least it would be good for me. I do rarely say what I want to.

ION, it's 7:13. I am so exhausted and didn't sleep well last night. It's light here until almost 9:00 but I am so tired I want to put the kids to bed now. I don't think they will go for it though.

I think speaking up is good for you. At least it would be good for me. I do rarely say what I want to.

This.

I'd planned to watch Iron Man 2 tonight. My neighbor's band is practicing, though -- well, just the drums and bass -- and it's too noisy to watch a movie. Argh.

Smonster, I'm sorry you have so much stuff to deal with all at once. I'm glad you were able to say what you felt you needed to say.

Sigh, we have spent the evening trying to figure out TCG's days off for the rest of the year. We have another wedding in Colorado in August (which we're mostly using as an excuse to visit buffistas), a second bigger reception for the wedding we were at last weekend, a graduation party, and I have three baby showers to attend (at least one of which I am going to miss). Have I mentioned I'm really not a very social person?

smonster, I'm sorry you're having a rough night. I am glad that he finally responded, though, I think now you might get some closure.

sj, good luck with the socializing and the travelling. Also, a second reception? I don't think that people should have to go to more than one reception. I understand why people have multiple receptions, but I thought they were for, like, different sets of people.

sj, good luck with the socializing and the travelling. Also, a second reception? I don't think that people should have to go to more than one reception. I understand why people have multiple receptions, but I thought they were for, like, different sets of people.

It isn't really a second reception. The wedding this weekend didn't really have a reception. It was just the ceremony on the beach with her closest friends and lots of partying. And the second party is so that she can invite everyone that she couldn't invite to the ceremony, and it is still going to be more of a camp day than any kind of formal wedding thing. She would probably understand if we couldn't go, but it is actually one of the few things on the list I'm looking forward to.

I really would just like to avoid all baby showers at the moment, but it seems everyone I know is currently pregnant. t /exaggeration

smonster, I feel your hip pain. These fucking beds in rental houses are pieces of shit. This house has a goddamn elevator but the mattresses are universally crap.

One week before we left for vacation, we got the new mattress at home, and after that first week sleeping on it, my hip and back felt 85% better. Now my hips and back are all buggered up again, and I'm on the heating pad to try to get it to ease up. (I know my biomechanical issues, so I just brought a heating pad with me. And tennis balls for muscle knots. And a strap to stretch my iliopsoas. Hi, I am 93 years old.)

In fact even without the darker colors you may want to do something about that. That room will probably be unpleasantly warm in the summer (and even on some sunny days in other seasons, worse with dark colors.) Can you get the windows tinted? Put up canopies? Something?

Oh yes, very much so. I've already figured on some sort of black-out curtains. Given that I work nights a bunch and sleep in when I can, I have to be able to block out that great California sun. What style of curtains??? that is a great question. I was thinking the roman shade type, but given the style of window, I don't think they'd look all that great. So, not really sure what to do for curtains. But yes, must have blackout curtains. I remember when looking at the place, she had some thick curtains that were big and ugly. And my realtor was like "OMG, why would you block such a gorgeous view!" And I was like, "it's to save on A/C! duh."