Jilli! I've skipped a bunch, but I caught there was something going on with your dad??? Whateves. You know you have my love and hugs and hairpats, right?

Also, Erin broke her hand or something????

I'm so lonely. Like, all the time lonely. And sad.

I'm sorry, Sean. I wish there was something I could do to help with that, as do many on this board, I wager. But I am so sorry.

I've seen the loneliness turn to rage, too. It can get bad.

Oh, honey. So sorry. Loneliness is insidious and it can lie to you. Bastard.

As far as I know, there isn't anything really going on with dad other than him being worn out from work. And me worrying. Lots.

You know you have my love and hugs and hairpats, right?

Yes! And I swear I saw you the other day walking around Pioneer Square by my office. I was very excited for a minute.

Something wacky in the air? I've been feeling low-level general anxiety half of yesterday, most of today. I think the main reason it is gone now is sheer exhaustion. Tough day at work.

Watching someone suffer through dimentia and very painful arthritis and attempting to assist that person through the day is one of the toughest parts of my job - both physically and emotionally.

I am taking my own advice WRT to Gatorade and some ibuprofen, too, because I have a headache and I can't tell if it's dehydration or muscle tightness from carrying my umbrella in my right hand all day (I have poor proprioception and don't realize when I'm hunching my shoulder).

And now shower and bed. Goodnight, my darlings - thank you as always for your love and support and making me laugh and sharing the good and the bad.

eta x-post with WindSparrow - that must be so, so exhausting. I can't even imagine. Blessings on your head.

Sean, I don't know what to say. So much of what people said to me when I was suffering from loneliness sounded like such utter crap that I resented them for it, and then felt guilty for resenting people who were trying to help.

You know what would be awesome? If we could curse Cancer (the disease, the entity) with Loneliness - or give Loneliness a tumor. If Cancer and Loneliness were busy fighting each other, they would stop plaguing people.

I never feel completely lonely as long as I can talk to the invisible people. I'd be much more lonely without all of you.

I hope this turns out to be a much better year for you, Sean.

Yup, this, Ginger.

Although, Sean, I know it can be so isolating. Loneliness is hard.

I was having such a good day, with really good friends, then BAM! I got home, and it was like a punch in the face.

HI Sean!

Good luck sans St. Woot, smonster!

I had a pretty good day--got up at a decent hour, got some breakfast, sewed a couple of little zippered pouches (one for me, with a red-with-blue-anchors-and-white rope patterned fabric, one for the roomie with pink and brown and polka dots and a cupcake patch on the back). And then we went to the running store and I bought new things for my shoes (to hopefully keep my shin splints under control), and then to Ben and Jerry's. And then walked a bit, took some pictures of her for a contest, got some sushi, came home and sewed her a tote bag (I'd bought her fabric that had runners and "you go girl" and stuff printed on it). And now I'm watching SYTYCD!