Wha? I totally thought Teppy was rising for the Morbo bait.

Oh, I soooo did not like the colposcopy, and they were like "er...do you want to come back some other time, we can give you a lorazepam?" and I was like "fuck no, I already am dealing with half of the procedure just freaking get it done!"

Teeny tiny earthquake! Just woke me up.

Bueller?

I was in the half asleep state and now am abruptly awake. Bleh. But tomorrow is a good day--I get both ND and SA! Now if I can just sleep.

I'm thinking of asking the pain specialist this time how much it's supposed to hurt, both during and after the procedure. And then suggest they take steps to work with my resistance to pain meds to actually have me out of pain.

For fuck's sake, yes. Out. Of. Pain.

I was getting medical attention before I was diagnosed with IBS and I was in fucking tears. With my mom at the hospital because she was visiting while I tried to be really brave. And then, pain paused. It was magic. Because I came to them in pain and it stopped for that time. Granted it only stopped briefly in hindsight but that is what medical professionals should provide. They should take someone in terrible pain and make it be tolerable. Make them able to go to the next day where they might find out why they are hurting and how to to hurt less.

Seriously.

Yes. What Cass said. With sugar on top. Or something.

Have apparently lost complete sentences.

And, I should add, just knowing what the hell made such pain helped me avoid the worst of it in the future. It was a revelatory admission.

Doesn't help what hurts my head right now, but there is a pain that is acknowledged and I can deal with the things and the hurts I can't avoid. Not all the pain, but one pain.

They should take someone in terrible pain and make it be tolerable. Make them able to go to the next day where they might find out why they are hurting and how to to hurt less.

I read the words...

I'm going to go to the ER early tomorrow morning. The current batch of meds hasn't worked as well recently. Doctors are leery to take my suggestion for altering it, although my migraine specialist agrees. They will not experiment with my cocktail to see what works better. My pain management doctor will not go on record with a recommendation.

I'm in pain. I don't want to be. Please help?

I'm thinking of asking the pain specialist this time how much it's supposed to hurt, both during and after the procedure. And then suggest they take steps to work with my resistance to pain meds to actually have me out of pain.

Please do that.

When my aunt had an accident at work (autoclave! yikes.), they were giving her some amount of pain meds that weren't at all working until they talked to my other aunt (her spouse) who let them know what she was taking regularly. So they way upped what they were giving her until it helped. Yay them, at least.

I wish you no pain, ita. Quickly.