Holy FUCK, Cash. I don't even know what to say.

Man, Cashmere - that is just so wrong.

That's astounding, Cashmere. I'm so sorry.

I'm shaking, I'm so pissed off and upset. The social worker last night told me they wouldn't release him until they had him medicated. So much for promises.

I'm trying to track down all my family he might call for a ride to tell them to not respond and to tell him to go to the shelter. When he loses it again, they will put him right back into the hospital where the other social workers said they can start over and try to get him medicated.

Unless he hurts himself or someone else. Because as we well know, schizophrenia is a cop-out used as an excuse to get out of trouble.

12 Labors of Hercules, yo. Stealing the meat-eating mares of Somebody. Being a fan of both horses and the dark sides of things, I knew horses could be trained to eat meat, and apparently thrive on it. I hadn't read about the man-eating horse of India before, though. That sounds to me less like a horse trained or defaulting to eating meat, and more like a stallion driven mad by a long journey in a dark ship's hold, with bad food and possibly bad treatment during and after. I can easily imagine such a tortured horse going crazy and wanting to stomp to death every human he saw. Anyone who's ever seen an angry frightened horse has no doubt they can be scary and dangerous. I mean, does anyone really believe that horses are just timid prey animals with no will of their own? Humans enslaved them and especially since the industrial revolution have treated them rather badly overall, not that there aren't beloved and well-treated horses, of course -- but they can't live in their natural circumstances. We don't let them live in herds, we don't even let them breed normally. No wonder most work horses have broken spirits and some horses just go batshit. I bought his book; I hope a lot of people do.

I do wonder about this though - I've been told that mares who eat a high-protein diet produce very tough amniotic sacs, and humans have to cut them open to get the foals out. Wouldn't mares who ate meat regularly do the same? Would they understand that they had to tear the sac open for their baby? Or could the foal actually do that if left alone? Not an experiment I'd like to run, but I wonder.

Cash, that's terrible. I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry, Cash. This country sucks at dealing with the mentally ill.

Words fail, Cash. I just hope he gets back to some kind of treatment soon.

Apparently, he was able to convince the doctor that he was "stable" by acting appropriately. He refused all mental health treatment and meds.

Oh, jesus, Cash. This is exactly what happened with my ex. How does a doctor who KNOWS he has schizophrenia get fooled by him acting stable, to let him leave alone without meds? I am outraged and scared on your behalf. How does a previously hospitalized schizophrenic patient get to refuse meds, anyway? That alone is proof that he isn't thinking straight. I hope you all can get him back into a hospital with no trauma!

This and this is the kind of stuff that happens when violent, paranoid schizophrenics are allowed to go off meds and not supervised.

I hate not being able to help him.