I got my first (and, arguably, only [if you don't count my phone]) iPod a few years ago. It's stopped charging, so I no longer use it. Besides, I kind of like having the phone on me for the next time I screw up my ankle and need to phone a friend to pick me up.

Oh, and in shallow nail news, I finally got a chance to try on the Zoya Gemma I bought weeks ago. So pretty! You'd think I'd be done with polish shopping after the big Zoya purchase, but no. Franny has been eyeing the new OPI silver crackle, and since they sell it down the street, I can hear it calling to me!

We marched in the parade with our Girl Scout service unit this morning. It was a great time until something in my head - intuition? sixth sense? - clicked and I looked at my awesome co-leader and said, "You're splitting the troop for the [other elementary school] next year for Brownies, huh?" She gaped and looked appalled. I felt horrible for asking her, but I was right. She is. She apologized and started crying. She was going to tell me tomorrow. She wants our two troops to be sister troops and still do lots of stuff together.

I makes total sense for the girls to have a troop at their home school and not travel across town just for my (what feels like to me half-assed) leadership. There should always be a troop at the home school.

So then why do I feel so utterly rejected? I cried the entire way home from the parade, on the phone with Joe, who is working. I love those girls. It accounts for about 75% of the troop. I know I'll still have girls that I love and who'll want to stay with me at the other school, but my heart is broken. L is a fantastic co-leader and has done so much for the troop this year and she's going to be completely awesome, but it's hard to see that right now. Right now, I'm sad and depressed and feeling like a total failure and like I want to just say forget it and not even do it next year.

t /whinypants

I think I need to come up with an activity for the kids today.

Me too!

Yesterday we went to a Hogwarts fan store called Whimsic Alley. They loved it. We didn't have much time, but I promised to go back another time and buy them magic wands.

I've been wanting to go, but haven't yet.

Grace is feeling under the weather. She was slightly afebrile this morning. Now she's asleep on the couch next to me. She feel asleep in my arms.

I'm watching Downton Abbey. Enjoyable!

Oh Aimee, it's definitely not a rejection of you! I'm sorry.

I'm trying to remind myself of that, but I think that my shattered emotional state right now is not allowing me to see that.

I'm thinking this might be the proverbial straw that gets me back to the therapist. I'm way overdue.

I misread the appt time, so for the second time in 3 days, I missed my hair appt. My lady will not take you even 10 min late. I may just go somewhere else, because honestly, work me in, and also, my hair is too damn long and bugging me.

I did get mac's hair cut just now, so at least that is done.

Oh Aimee, I'm sorry! I agree it's totally not rejection of you.

I'm sorry to hear Grace isn't feeling well, Kat. Isaac is a bit punky too, but in his case I'm pretty sure it's allergies run amok. Poor kid.

As for an activity, I am eyeing the SMC pool. That might happen.

I've been wanting to go, but haven't yet.

It was very cute, cheesy but cute. And the kids ADORED it. Plus there was a crafts fair going on and the kids got to try butter beer (which seems to be root beer with whipped cream and caramel sauce on top) and bring home skelly goblets. I find the idea of a high tea in the Great Hall kind of appealing.

We just finished Downton Abbey last night! Loved it except for the gay footman being the villain. Ick.

My lady will not take you even 10 min late.

What the huh? That's a bit rigid. My stylist is the opposite--she usually runs 1/2 an hour to an hour late, so you arrive on time at your peril. But on the plus side she'll totally come over and cut our hair at the house!