Belated 2010 summary:
In 2010 I made a concerted effort to go out and do things. I went to concerts and parties and fairs and lectures and book readings. And yet still I end up with the same frustrating result: At the end of the day,I am still achingly alone.
The fat of the matter is that no matter is that no matter how much it seems that I'm trying to engage, I'm actually still avoiding; avoiding engaging anyone else on an emotional level, avoiding my own feelings, and avoiding a whole bunch of painful memories. And until I stop avoiding, there will never be any real change for me.
So, anyway, more therapy for me in 2011. Hopefully, I'll be ready to take advantage of it, and open up about stuff.
Absolutely. Tom, you're a wonderful person, and someone I feel lucky to know. I hope your hard work brings you some better things in 2011 and beyond.
What Kate said. Plus you have an awesome smile.
I actually mailed my slacker present today! That will make it less than a month late!
I bought the first part of my slacker present yesterday.
Heh heh. I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.
Heh heh. I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.
Sure, but it'd probably be a slacker hit. Every year you'll put another post in Good Riddance, apologising that you haven't got round to it yet, but you stopped into a music store and asked which pianos are the mot effective when dropped from a great height, so that's progress, isn't it?
Dear 2011,
This is NOT the way to start out. You need to work very, very hard to make things better. My mom making a full recovery would be a good start.
Tom, IME therapy is a long, slow process, often going long stetches without discernable results. Then a lot happens in a short time. Whether it's incremental gains or a rush of progress, I hope 2011 is the year that it all comes together for you.
Continued ~ma, Jilli.
