Possibly, though I'm not in a position to afford any charges that might come from that. We'll see.

argh, Sean. What a hassle.

I wanted to go back to sleep but there is a child in the house who does not have an inside voice.

Uggh, Sean.

Sparky, I wish you a rapid, under-budget, and trouble-free floor installation.

Eek, Sean.

Oh, for fuck's sake, Sean. WTH.

Sean, dude, that's way lame. Do you want to get Google Voice, so when/if you get a new phone number you can just use your GV number from here on out?

I will not chew my drainage tubes out...I will not chew my drainage tubes out...

What a bitch, Sean! I hope that gets resolved soonish.

Even when I've been in happy relationships, it was hard for me to rely on other people for stuff like that, precisely for fear of something like you are going through. Ergh.

Makes my piddly whine insignificant in comparison, but I'm going to whine it anyway. Otherwise, I won't get it out of my head enough that I can do the other things I need to do today.

So. The bff, who moved to AZ in April (days before my birthday) has been talking for months about how excited she is to come see me this weekend. Her mom is moving from here to AZ and she's come out to help with preparations and to take advantage of space in the moving van to get more of here stuff to her new home.

I was looking forward to seeing her too.

I should point out that her old house is 6 blocks from me, on the Hill.

She was supposed to come Saturday, but got caught up in stuff. So she says she'll come see me in the morning yesterday before she gets some stuff done for a realtor showing in the afternoon. I mention that I had a work appointment and was being picked up at 2. 'Perfect!' She replies.

I don't hear from her until she leaves a message at 3 saying she is too tired to stop by. Of course, I'm not here to hear the message, in which she says she will see me today.

Meanwhile, I turned down two offers for grocery store runs yesterday because I did not want to impinge on her time. Thankfully, a former client brought me 2 quarts of rather tasty chicken soup today because the larder, she is bare at the mo.

At noon today, she calls to say that she can't see me today, but will 'make time' tomorrow.

I tell her that I work from 1-7 tomorrow, but am free in the morning.

She suggests that I make '5 minutes' between sessions so that she can come by and 'at least give me a hug.'

Really?

I don't even know what to say.

I've waited 3 days in a row. Granted, except for work, I haven't gone anywhere because I feel much, much better but am still weak.

But still, really?

Honestly, if she'd said from the outset that she was going to be in town but too pressed to visit, I would totally understood. But all this build up and then the great blow off.

Feh. Thanks bff. I'm sorry to inform you that your rank is under reconsideration.

Ow, bonny, that is seriously inconsiderate. Especially after all that you've been through.

I see Bonny and I have similar friends.

I will not chew my drainage tubes out...I will not chew my drainage tubes out...

God, I hated those. You may know this already, but if you pin them to a ribbon around your neck rather than to your clothes, they don't pull as much.

I went for a dress fitting today and there is still no actual dress. I'm trying very hard not to freak out.