Be careful not to put all the Hypnotoad eggs in one basket. They could reach critical mass.

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Elevator~ma to omnis, license~ma to Joe and mom~ma to Matt.

I wrote this post about three hours ago, and debated if to post it here or not. Between now and then, I watched Terriers and had late dinner, and I'm feeling a lot better. But what I wrote still valids (grammar?):

I don't need brackets, but this is the first Yom Kippur in the past few years I don't secretly fast in (secretly because my family is Oh So Secular); it doesn't feel like a special day at all anymore, so I don't feel the need to act differently. Somehow, in the past year, I lost this part of faith. Maybe I've gone native with too much sociology, "the secular science", but I fear I'm too scared to believe anything greater or more grand than structures of human lives and their consequences at this point. It's not that I don't find beautiful, fascinating things there - but I miss this unscientific, noble faith. I didn't thought I lost it until today. I know it was a hard year with a lot of blows for me to take, but I didn't thought it will seriously effect anything.

I guess it did. In the past few months, I grew short tempered and mistook it for growing a character/personality. I was easy to judge others' behaviors when these effected me personally, even though my basic faith in basic rights of all people grew stronger. And the weirder of all, I started crying at movies and TV shows - something I've never done before. Despite I found more positive sides to the processes above, I lost a perspective, a reason and an equant I have no idea now how to gain back.

And I want it back. I can't imagine an existence without believing in something greater and more grand and grant. But this year, I couldn't find the reason, the inner motive to believe.

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Shir, perhaps you are just past the stage where faith was easy because it was unchallenged, and you're about to get to the stage where faith is deep and sure because it's been tested.

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Whatever it is, it's way past the time to go to bed. Thanks, Connie.

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Or maybe you are at the point where you can live knowing that this life and this universe is all there is, and that if the universe does not care about you people still do. I've been an atheist since I was five.I don't insist that everybody needs to share my view or try to convert anyone. But, honestly, not believing in the supernatural, not believing in justice beyond that made by immense human effort at huge costs, not believing that consciousness lasts past the life of this body is not a horrible fate. I mean if you hate not believing these things you probably will find a way to believe in them. But not the only path to joy and being a good person. Atheists are on the whole no less virtuous than the religious and not short on fun either.

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Oof. I feel ugh. I'm pretty sure it's just a cold, but I feel like crap. This always happens at the beginning of the school year -- all the students bringing in the germs from everywhere, so everybody catches something from somebody.

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My faith isn't in a deity and attendant supernatural entourage but more in a sense that the cosmos has an awareness of some sort, though I have no means of defining it. When I die, I'll need to present myself to the cosmos and all eternity, and so far I don't feel like I'm going to be ashamed of what I have to show for what I did with my existence.

It's sort of like the Total Perspective Vortex in Hitchhikers. I'm OK with being a tiny little spot in the immensity of eternity because even a tiny little speck is part of the greater whole. And at the same time I am the center of the universe, because if the universe is infinite then it does extend outward from my perceptions. Everyone is the center of the universe as they see it.

(The above brought to you by Meanderings on Friday)

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all the students bringing in the germs from everywhere, so everybody catches something from somebody.

Oh great. Something to look forward to next week. This wasn't in the brochure.

ION- wife of crazy uncle responded to my note about the USDA and FDA getting budgets cut by the previous administration, and that taxes are needed to pay for it, and the current party she supports is against it, said:

I fully support the teaparty! AND safe food! So why isn't Obama using "stimulus" money to fund safe food for Americans ????

My eyes are hurting from @@ really hard, and for prolonged time.

As for the elevator. They have 'solved' the problem by putting up signs with rather bad grammar (which, coming from me, means it's REALLY bad) letting us know it's broken until Monday.

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I just spoke with my mom's longtime attorney who, after he laughed hysterically, said, "I don't give a FUCK who she says she is, I'm gonna wipe the floor with her ass."

After you've won the case, maybe you should ask your lawyer to send her a cease & desist letter.

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What does it mean if someone ends an email with "Dominoes and biscuits!"?

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