I get confused. I remember everything. I remember too much, and... some of it's made up, and... some of it can't be quantified, and... there's secrets.

River ,'Safe'


Spike's Bitches 46: Don't I get a cookie?  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Nora Deirdre - Jul 05, 2011 5:47:21 am PDT #24683 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

Aw, I'm sorry you had such a crap weekend, Frank. I'd wish you a happy belated birthday but it sounds like such a thing is not happening right now... I wish you an awesome year going forward, though!


sumi - Jul 05, 2011 5:51:11 am PDT #24684 of 30000
Art Crawl!!!

Yes,hope that 45 turns out to be so much better than you have feared.


Frankenbuddha - Jul 05, 2011 5:53:38 am PDT #24685 of 30000
"We are the Goon Squad and we're coming to town...Beep! Beep!" - David Bowie, "Fashion"

Thanks, Nora, I appreciate the thought. I probably didn't help my cause by (1) drinking too much the last few days and (2) not eating terribly well, and the self-sabotage is finally getting really apparent today. It's funny (in a not fun way) how easy it is to slip into bad behavior and not realize the fact until later when it catches up.

Oh well, I always preferred making resolutions around my birthday rather than at New Years and I think I have a couple I have to work on now.


Frankenbuddha - Jul 05, 2011 5:58:05 am PDT #24686 of 30000
"We are the Goon Squad and we're coming to town...Beep! Beep!" - David Bowie, "Fashion"

Anyway, I need to start simple, like with a shower. Maybe get laundry done so I feel like I've done something constructive this weekend. I need to eat, but I'm not feeling remotely hungry right now.


Nora Deirdre - Jul 05, 2011 6:00:39 am PDT #24687 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

probably didn't help my cause by (1) drinking too much the last few days and (2) not eating terribly well, and the self-sabotage is finally getting really apparent today.

Ugh, I know this one well. Hope today is productive and helps bring you back up to baseline. I recommend watching some fun TV on DVD and maybe doing some cooking?


DavidS - Jul 05, 2011 6:16:44 am PDT #24688 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."

Sorry your birthday was - as Matilda would put it - poopy. May the day off be a good bounce back for you, Frank.


beth b - Jul 05, 2011 6:37:04 am PDT #24689 of 30000
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!

Hoping the poor start brings you a great year. and I hope that getting one or two things accomplished makes a difference . It usually work for me


meara - Jul 05, 2011 6:37:27 am PDT #24690 of 30000

Hope you feel better frank!

After last nights scooter drama, this morning I called to change my flight to tomorrow (after finding out I can do the stuff thurs/fri instead of wed/thurs which wasn't working)...only to find out tomorrow's flights are sold out. So had to get the ok from boss to stay an extra day and then race the fuck around packing--I thought I'd have all today to do that and laundry and so on! Agh.

Got up v early thinking I could check if later was ok or if it had to be cancelled all together and then Go back to sleep!! But no.


§ ita § - Jul 05, 2011 6:53:22 am PDT #24691 of 30000
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.

I did not know fentanyl was that much stronger than morphine. Good god. They doubled me up on that for my nerve block and I still cried like a baby. I wonder how it ranks with dilaudid.


Kate P. - Jul 05, 2011 6:58:40 am PDT #24692 of 30000
That's the pain / That cuts a straight line down through the heart / We call it love

Also, Kate, welcome back! Can't wait to hear stories and see pics.

Thanks, lady! We'll probably get some pics up this weekend. It's weird to be back at work today. Also, less fun than honeymooning.

So glad to hear about your great date with St. Woot! I gather there's some background info I missed (no way I can catch up on two weeks' worth of Bitches & Natter right now) but he sounds very promising.

I used you and your DH as an example tonight of folks who met on OKC.

Yay! It worked for us! I have a couple friends who have just taken the OKC plunge. Here's hoping for good results all around. Is St. Woot an OKC find?