Thanks, everyone. It's not unexpected, but it's always sudden. And someone in my life I've always loved and loved me is gone forever. So even though she was 94, it's still hard and sad and she was the centering point of the family, and I don't know how we'll interact without her.

And I'm sad that I couldn't be with her again one more time, but I am glad that she was finally able to let go. It's been a hard couple of years for her.

Peace to you and your's Nora. . . and wow - 94. That's pretty amazing.

I'm sorry, Nora.

To paraphrase Millay, I wish I could just sit with you for the time it takes to drink a pot of tea, in silence, and just be.

i'm sorry Nora, peace to all

Nora, I'm so sorry for your loss.

I just want Paul Tracy to win ONE. How is this too much to ask?

Well, once you put it on Cass' Big Paul Tracy List o' Asks...

Well, once you put it on Cass' Big Paul Tracy List o' Asks...

That trick never works.

But he's in the 500 next Sunday, so that's something.

I'm a bit bummed about missing it.

Not "cancel the trip of a lifetime" bummed, but a bit.

Does he have a deece car?

tapering off Welbutrin

Oh, hi. I might be doing this soon. I started Wellbutrin more than 9 months ago, and I think it's been acceptable as an AD, though not fantastic, BUT it's fucked up my sleep patterns so badly I can't even tell you. Also, my anxiety has gone through the roof in roughly about the same time frame. I don't know if it aggravates my anxiety, or just fails to help what anxiety is pre-existing.

But I don't think the therapeutic benefits are worth the side effects.

The problem now, of course, is that I don't know if I should switch to another AD or just taper off and see how I feel. I know -- and history has shown -- that when I go off ADs, I'm back on them within 6 months. So I ought to switch to an SSRI. But they make me gain weight and mess with my sexytimes, and it's turning out that a lot of the generic SSRIs also give me an allergic reaction.

That would be no huge deal, because my doctor can just write the Rx for the brand name. But when our insurance switches over in June, the co-pay for brand-name, even when the doctor says it has to be brand-name, is $50. Jesus. I know it's worth it if the drug helps, but...I don't know.

I'm mostly inclined to just taper off for now and see how I feel. Because then the option to re-start something is always there.

Mostly, I just want to see if stopping the Wellbutrin makes me actually sleep like a normal person. Or sleep more than 5-6 hours a night. I feel like maybe getting 8 hours of quality sleep a night, for more than 1 night at a time, might actually help my mood, you know?

So, anyway. Doctor appointment tomorrow morning. I look forward to the roller-coaster of tapering off Wellbutrin.

Ugh, Steph. Honestly no antiD has ever really helped me, so I totally get the reticence for trying something new that maybe won't work. Yet I am so amazingly in favor of people taking advantage of ads that work for them... It's a bitch.

Does he have a deece car?

He's in. It's not the best car but he's got his shot.

I am bummed that I had the tiniest glimmer of attending the Nascar race in Charlotte, NC next weekend. They have a massive screen and will show ALL of the Indy stuff on the crazy awesome screen. But I can't even pretend to take advantage of the tickets.