Jilli, I'm so sorry.

Gud, job~ma and sanity~ma.

I'm going to rant a little bit, because I feel safe doing it here:

Fuck 2011. Fuck this. It has been an awful year, I don't want to deal with it anymore, and I wish there was some way I could make Pete feel better. Because Tzepesh was HIS cat, and he feels like he betrayed Tzepesh's trust by making the choice to let him go. Which he DIDN'T, because once the vet saw Tzepesh last night, she looked horrified and said that he wasn't the same cat she had seen just last week. There wasn't anything else we could have done, and bringing him home last night wouldn't have made a miraculous change. But none of that changes Pete's feelings.

{{{Jilli&Pete}}}

((((Jilli and Pete)))) It's an impossible decision to make without second-guessing yourself. For what it's worth, it would have been a greater disservice to Tzepesh to ask him to suffer.

Jilli, you go ahead and rant. It has been a shitastic year for you and too many others here. I saw how Pete feels about having made the choice and I know that there's no changing his mind and you know, he's damned well entitled to feel anyway he wants to, but you all did the right, most humane thing you could have done. It makes it no less heartbreaking but you made the choice to not allow Tzepesh to suffer any more. And no one could have given him a better more loving home.

Gud, if you're about, you go ahead and rant, too.

Fred, you've been dealing with more than enough of this as well.

And smonster, sweetie, we got your back as well.

I can't stand that people who work so hard and feel so deeply and are just so good keep getting shit on. Fuck off, Universe-- leave Buffista Island alone already.

Oh, Jilli, so hard. And I know it was absolutely the right thing to do, but I know that it's impossible for Pete to know that.

And Fred Pete, I'm so sorry.

he feels like he betrayed Tzepesh's trust by making the choice to let him go.

I've needed to read a lot about losing a pet in the past couple of months, and one thing that gets repeated is that people who feel like they could/should have done more are the people who already have done everything possible (in other words, the people who were shitty pet owners were NOT the ones thinking they could have done more). I'd guess this is the case with Pete and Tzepesh. It feels like a betrayal, but it's not. Which is easy to say, but hard to believe.

I'm so sorry for you and Pete, Jilli. This is so hard, and SUCH a shitty year.

And I totally missed Fred Pete's post. I'm so sorry about Victor. God, it's so hard.

My brother still feels that way about his dog, too.