everything I come up with is passive aggressive

Honestly, what I need right now is a nice way to respond to this e-mail that isn't. "Did you fucking want me to call you at 2AM?" because that is what the aggravated me wants to respond with.

That one is easy. Write a note with every expletive you can muster...preferably long hand so you can really get the energy out. Then read it out loud, either to TCG with all the flourishes, or to the mirror. THEN, tear it up and dispose of it responsibly.

And finally, reply to the email with, "It is so hard when stuff gets messed up like this, isn't it? How would you like to proceed?"

This acknowledges the discomfort and then gives her the opportunity to take responsibility for her own reactions.

Let her shop for day care and try to find a better deal. She won't.

She actually has day care M-Th, but she is working a half day on Friday and would still have to pay for a full day of day care if she sent him that day. She knows the exact number amount of what I am saving her.

Bonny, honestly I know you're advice is good, but I know I can't do it. My ability to deal with confrontation is sort of non existent at the moment. I know I need to work on that. If she asks me to watch him this summer I will say that I am looking for work and if she needs me, I need to be paid, but I can't renegotiate midstream for the school year.

Bonny, honestly I know you're advice is good, but I know I can't do it. My ability to deal with confrontation is sort of non existent at the moment. I know I need to work on that. If she asks me to watch him this summer I will say that I am looking for work and if she needs me, I need to be paid, but I can't renegotiate midstream for the school year.

I totally respect that. Knowing yourself is a) impressive and b) key to keeping yourself together.

This may be one of those accursed, 'lesson learned' deals. Just get through it the best you can and take the learning forward that says "Value yourself. It's not that NO one else will, but it IS that a damn site fewer than you'd like will."

InOmeN, my shoulders are incredibly sore from restraining that child from biting me. There are teeth marks all over my sweater and one of the fringes on my scarf is tattered.

I'm going to go take a long, hot bath and contemplate puppies and unicorns.

I totally respect that. Knowing yourself is a) impressive and b) key to keeping yourself together.

Thanks. I've had lots and lots of therapy. Which reminds me that I need to find a new therapist.

I just responded that I would be there Friday and I'm sorry if I inconvenienced her a couple weeks back but that I did not know I was going to be sick when I went to bed that Thursday night, and that I was unsure of whether or not I should call her in the middle of the night or when I thought she would be awake. Probably not the best response, but it was the best I could do, and now I really need to get to bed. Pain has been making sleep difficult lately, but I'm hoping to actually get some tonight.

You know, right now, all you can do is damage control. Get through this semester and don't sign up for more without clear boundaries. And get some good sleep.

I'd settle for somewhat adequate sleep.

sj, I would probably be either caving under from undeserved guilt or blowing up the relationship right now, if I were in your place. So, yeah, I have no advice, and I am deeply appreciative of the wisdom of the hivemind.

There's no way in darkest Hades I could deal with a child who was threatening me and biting me on a regular basis. That child has learned that no one will hurt her because she's a little kid, and there's no other constraint she cares about that her parents will enforce. As a little kid, I was very much influenced by guilt and the fear of my parents' disappointment. I can't imagine the shit I could have done if I hadn't been.

Me: billytea would be so proud.

He would! Did Mal learn of the sarcastic fringehead from the Life series?

My Amazon UK order arrived this week (insanely quickly, and free shipping, which I am pimping to everyone I meet). It includes Attenborough's First Life. There's this thoroughly charming moment in the "making of" special, where the bus with all the camera gear is bogged in mud in Morocco. David is sitting out at the film site with his friend Richard Fortey, a leading expert on trilobites (I have this book of his: [link] ).

Anyway, while they're waiting under the Moroccan sun, Richard pipes up with, "I've been thinking of making a movie about trilobites. ...I'd call it, 'Thoracic Park'."

Thoroughly charming.