Fuck the doctor's discomfort. If she doesn't like treating patients the way they need to be treated she should go into another line of work. I hope they'll get the IV thing working for you soon, ita.

No IV. Either she never asked the nurses, or they refused to try. Also, oral benadryl. Why do they keep insisting it works just the same as injected? Do they not take medicine? My migraine specialist gets this *so* clearly, and then you hit a doctor that looks weird at me because I'm unwilling to risk an anxiety attack. Lady, I've been crying for half an hour. You want me to gamble with adding meds-induced panic to that because you *refuse* to give me a shot of benadryl, for fuck's sake?

She's all "I'm sure we'll see each other again. " Why, lady, why? You don't like treating me. I don't think you're actually doing me any medical good.

Oh, great. She wants to know how I'm doing. THE SAME. "How does it usually make you feel? Instantly awesome?" Administered this way it makes me feel nothing but sleepy. No pain relief. And I'm not even sleepy.

She's writing for more subq dilaudid. Which makes me suspect I got a really low dose the first time. But, fuck, the bar is so low I'm impressed she offered more meds. Of course, I'm sure I'm an addict for accepting. Fuck you. I'd be addicted to pain relief in a hot second if I could achieve it for more than two days.

I wonder what a chronic pain sufferer who's not chasing drugs looks like. I should be one for Halloween.

I wonder what a chronic pain sufferer who's not chasing drugs looks like. I should be one for Halloween.

You may have trouble pulling off the 6-foot male Norwegian look of Hubby.

Yeah, I think being black and female hamstrings me in that particular disguise.

I hate people. You'd think I was asking for shit that took effort or ran risks. Or didn't have experienced medical approval. You know.

Guessed right. Original script was for 2mg of dilaudid. Do they not even read anymore?

Jesus christ. You would think having records would help.

Apparently these records say I have been sufficiently apnic multiple times that I was administered narcan to reverse the effects of the dilaudid. Really? She was a little too smug assuring me that perhaps I don't remember because I ALMOST DIED. But you know what bitch? I'm actually paying attention here. Every visit is important to me. My life revolves around the outcome.

If you all gave me narcan and I don't know about it now, I never knew. And that's not responsible doctoring.

Also, I've been threatened with narcan to keep me in line (seriously), and that nurse took pains to assure me it was a horrible experience I would regret with every fibre of my being.

Or, you know, forget all about it. Six of one…

oh damn, ita. I wish that this were not your experience.I wish that things went as smoothly as possible instead of a fucked up experience.

I want to illegally horde drugs, learn to put in an IV and have ita take vacation at my house. FUCK THAT BITCH LADY DR.!

ALso, mac is a pill, that is all. as you will notice, we are not at church.

Holy shit. Why oh why can't you get the good ones every week??