I don't expect swelling music and hidden depths just because I got pregnant.

I'm not doing a marketing job on parenthood; I'm not selling it. I'm saying that the experience of parenthood changes you so much that your prior frames of reference are difficult to apply in prognostication.

While this is generally true (Future!You will be different from Present!You), the experience of parenthood compresses the changes into a short period of time. It is not an incremental change that's easier to foresee. (Like: "As I get older I won't give a shit about what other people say and I'll be less stressed." Or, "As I get older I'll get more tired and my sense of control over my environment will get less and that will make me crabbier.")

Hec, at any point have I been unclear about my inability to take care of myself? Do you seriously think I can take care of anything or anyone else right now? Seriously?

I BARELY FUNCTION for fuck's sake. There's no romantic guesswork that introduces a kid into that and suddenly thriving happens. Jesus.

ita: I don't know how you do it. Literally -- I'm pretty sure I would not be able to have a full-time job if I were in the pain you are in.

Thanks for the suggestions. There's a new Sally's Beauty Supply place that might want to advertise and some spas we can hit. My comic shop dude said he wasn't interested but I can try again. I wish we had a skate shop! Sadly we have to order our gear online or in Appleton.

Hec, at any point have I been unclear about my inability to take care of myself? Do you seriously think I can take care of anything or anyone else right now? Seriously?

I'm not speaking to your experience specifically, but to the general "I could never do that" class of comments. I think you are absolutely right that you are not in a position to take care of somebody else.

But if Grace were in your care, and you two were stranded you would tend to her no matter how incapacitated you were. I believe that anyway. That people will do things for a child in their care that are beyond their capacity or will or desire to do for themselves.

Like, if I were stranded in the snow with a broken leg I'd probably curl up in a ball and freeze to death. But if I had Matilda with me I'd drag myself out of the mountains on a bloody stump with her on my back.

God. How I Met Your Mother is not supposed to make you cry right?

It's the only thing I really try and do, keep this job. I'm operating in a constant state of paranoia and conviction that it can't last, though.

if I had Matilda with me I'd drag myself out of the mountains on a bloody stump with her on my back.

I'm happy for both you and Matilda in this scenario. You have spoons in your back pockets.

I would really REALLY not recommend anyone strand me on a bad day with a child. Or a cat. Or themselves. But this is not something I can talk about without getting inordinately upset, and I'm at work, and this is no time for it.

Jesus, David.

Compassion comsmassion, you're causing emotional distress to a woman who can accidentally kill you with her thumb. Now where would Matilda be then?

(Besides surround by a crowd of cheering people becuase ita FINALLY got to kill someone with her thumb.)

In awesome news: Cubano sandwich for lunch!