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An article on Tuesday about a poll in which Americans fared poorly in answering questions about religion misspelled the name of a beatified Roman Catholic nun and Nobel Peace Prize winner. She was Mother Teresa, not Theresa.

I think I've broken Hubby of saying "I don't deserve you" and "You're too good for me." Because I said to him, "What am I supposed to say to that, 'You're right, I am too good for you, I'm leaving'?" I also pointed out that saying he doesn't deserve me could be taken as an insult of my decision-making abilities that I would stay with such a loser for 25 years. I much prefer him to say, "I love you a whole lot." It covers a lot of ground.

I defeated the insomnia fairy by taking sleeping pills

Is that how it works?

Wait, no...

I think I will start out my sleep diary with last night. I hate checking the clock every time I wake up, since I think it messes with my ability to get back to sleep easily, but since I did, I might as well write it all down. I'm worried they gave me a sheet about a sleep study, though. Why would they do that for a 9am appointment? Must have been an error. Though I will call in.

saying "I don't deserve you" and "You're too good for me."

I don't think I could tolerate someone that did that to me. But I'm really gunshy.

Bread pudding for breakfast is the win. Between starting to bake bread myself and this, I haven't stopped by my Coffee Bean in forever.

I think I need a t-shirt that says "Spirit Warrior for Secularism" Because that concept is funny to me because I am the least spiritual person I know. I've tried, but mostly while meditating, I just get an earworm or something and wonder for the three millionth time what a "pompatus" is.(It is still good for unfocused anxiety and whatnot, but "Eat, Pray, Love," would have been very different if I'd written it.) Elizabeth Gilbert wouldn't have laughed so hard at the "Rahm Emanuel's effect on Political Discourse, 2020" Internet sketch. But I thought I might choke and die from when the grad student answers "Who did Emanuel beat as mayor of Chicago?" with "Some asshole," ita, of course you're right. Jess, you're funny. Kat, I too often feel the urge to say "I do it because I didn't get a vote." And, honestly, I don't really feel like I handle the challenges all that great...just yesterday I had a total self-pity freakout,

And really, until you actually do it, you don't know how you do it. Sometimes while you're doing it, you don't know how you do it.

I'm with Cash on this. Nothing really prepares you for parenthood, but you don't know what you can do until you're in it.

That's honestly NOT what I mean.

Sorry, I wasn't trying to put my words in anyone else's mouth. I am tired and cranky and not a good person this week.

you don't know what you can do until you're in it.

On the other hand, sometimes you make a reasoned gamble and just skip it. Because, seriously, I can't take care of myself properly. I don't expect swelling music and hidden depths just because I got pregnant.

But I'm going to see the tattoo parlors, the record store and a few chiropractors in town. Can't think of any other ideas.

I would try a some salons as well (focusing on cool, modern salons) and/or spas. It's nice to look pretty when you're kicking ass!

Sorry, I wasn't trying to put my words in anyone else's mouth.

I know you didn't, no apology needed! The conversation has been good for helping me suss out exactly what I did mean. And dug up some issues I didn't even realize I had.

In my venting about what people who don't know me and my shit very well say to me, I did not intend to make people feel bad. I did not mean to imply that people should stop saying anything that they honestly mean. And really, it has less to do with the sayer than with me, and where I am at the moment. Because really, people saying things to me are not responsible for how I react to it, I am.

I did not want to make anyone feel bad and do not want anyone here to feel that they need to watch what they say to me. God knows, with you people I will snap back if I take it the wrong way, because we are good like that. The reason I could just lay it all out there is because we are good like that, I'll tell you if I am taking something said here poorly.

And finally, I will leave you with this clip, it is how I let mac's therapist know when I am getting to close to the edge, I tell her, "I haven't dropped the baskets yet, but I am afraid I am really close." I have been there more often than I like and it is scary as hell, so I think part of my bad reactions to the platitudes sometimes are because part of me wants to run and run and run. The whole things explains it pretty well, or FF to 7:18 [link]