ita, I hate that you have to make these kinds of decisions, but it sounds like you made the best one available.

Jesse, phooey. That's a PITA.

Took a long nap and just woke up. Oh hai brain. Feels better now.

And now to eat something, walk the dog, and hopefully go right back to bed. Plan B involves White Collar.

I keep typing and not posting.

Insert long weird post here. I've down 4 lbs in as many weeks, which is weird, and I have a depressing theory about it.

Tattoo done. Kelly took pictures, which she will hopefully send to me soon.

It looks so much more like what I had wanted originally. I'm a happy woman.

Dear Skin-

Please fucking settle down. I'm fucking nice to you. And you thank me with a 2 week cystic zit, random irritation... STOP.

Me

You are under a lot of stress and probably not eating enough. Stress is a bad, bad thing for my skin, I know.

I'm eating as usual, and making sure to be super hydrated on account of the weather, but the stress connection (though I am not feeling it, I'm just sad) is probably there. That's the theory I mentioned before. eta: I think

Sucks to have to make those kinds of decisions, ita. I hope you find a life drawing session at a time when you're physically up for it.

What a weird day. Got tired really early and I can't figure out whether it was eating too high glycemic or whether it was finally breaking down after a month or more of completely pushing the boundaries of my disability (my body is certainly entitled to break down at this point). Slept a lot of the day. Forced myself to go to the Farmers Market since it's only once a week.

The market was better than I expected. More organic producers than I remembered. Got to take a little walk through Barristers Nursery, which I think is owned by an ex-pat Brit. They specialize in English gardens but also have enough edibles there to be of interest to me. Too bad they have such a small triangular space, though. They're miles ahead of San Marino Nursery in quality and if they had more square footage they could carry more things I'd buy on a regular basis like Black Gold potting mixes and such. Beautiful place to hang out, though.

A pound a week is 500 calories less eaten or 500 calories more burned every single day. Maybe try to get a few snacks in. I am just worried because I know you are stressed and sad. That really takes a toll on the body too.

Suzi, want to see tattoo pics!

Eh, I have padding to burn, though I'd rather it be for a happy reason. And I've been nibbling on the work cookies this week (hormones. Swear, one week a month, I actually crave cookies,) so definitely not going short on food. I think my metabolism amps up when there's anything unusual going on. Which explains the last 3 years or so.