I look at what I'm doing now and I mostly just wonder why the fuck I didn't do this years ago.

Maybe also because Erika gave the push that helped you move towards action?

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Happy Birthday Kristin and Maria!!

So I got some bad news about the procedure. The doctor couldn't do it, the two vestigal stump things (and I have two not just one are touching the the ureter tube and there's no way to burn them off.

However, the doctor said that there is reflux into the stumps so they need to be dealt with. So the next step will be surgery because if I don't get this fixed I'll just keep getting infections.

So the doctor is going to call Shands Hospital and talk to them. The plan right now is that I'll go over there for an evaluation/consult and hopefully they'll be able to take care of the problem surgically.

My doctor won't do this because he doesn't feel he has enough experience and it's a big deal.

Also I need to lose weight. He said that it will make things easier for me and he even said that because of my weight it was difficult to see the second stump.

But I've planning on starting a new eating plan. I've been reading Clean Eating magazine and each issue they have a 2 week eating plan with meals and snacks so my plan is to start that and start using my Wii fit and the Biggest Loser Wii game I got for Christmas.

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Also the doctor is going to talk to an infections disease expert about options for me with antibiotics and if there are any other options since I'm allergic to furiodanten (I spelled that wrong, used to treat UTIs), penicillin, sulfa, and I had the tendon pain side effects with Levaquin.

I need a medic alert necklace.

OH! And even though the culture came back normal based on what he saw in the cystoscopy he thinks I have an infection so took a culture and sent it out.

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Askye, hope the doctors can figure out how to help you.

My parents are coming to visit this weekend. This was supposed to be a distraction from math stress, but it seems like dealing with my parents trying to deal with snow might just be adding new stress.

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I'm glad you are at least finally getting the real scoop on what has been causing all this trouble, askye. Sounds like you have good plans for moving forward.

Happy birthdays Pix and Maria!

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Happy Birthday PixK and Maria!!

It depends on how many checks you have in the Pro column. If it is all crazy making, then cancel.

None really. She made the first move. There was nothing in her profile that was red flags. So I thought, why not. The more I talk, the more I think, "oh dear dog, she's an idiot". She is a few years older than me, I think 42. She lives next door to her parents. In her grandma's house (I think g'ma is gone). Pays no rent. Mom still cooks for her, and does her laundry. Her son lives with her parents next door. She dropped out of college because it was "too much work", and is bummed that she doesn't have a better paying job. About the only thing good about her is: she likes classic rock music. She left her ex (the few stories she told of him is spooky). It's not like she's a hottie either. So. Ya. gonna cancel. I gotta fix some speakers at work anyhow. So. Perfect excuse.

O_a, run. People can change, but don't count on it; she can get back to you when she does.

Ya, as a person perpetually a third wheel. One thing I learned is, ya can't change folk. And, she doesn't seem worth trying to change.

I'll also share with you my two new mantras for dating:

1) Trust your gut

2) Don't settle

Smonster is wise!

I have reframed my OK Cupid expectations to "meet interesting people I don't want to have sex with."

:: sigh :: ... but... but... I want sex. Miss it. And Match.com had 0 matches for me. :: sigh ::

P-C, at least she didn't call to hound ya. Although the caps were fun. Good for you in standing up.

Smonster, I gotta catch up on FB. Will vote!

ION- v-day work festivities. Ya. I'm dashing around trying to get a show loaded in, and I head to level 8 (admin offices) where the printer is, to get a print out, and someone asked "BC where is your box?" "I don't have one" "why not?" "I'm trying to load in a show". Didn't hear the response, as I was dashing for the elevator. Boss gave me a hard time about it. "Ya had 2 weeks to go to Target and spend $2 on stupid cards". "what makes you think I wanted to go shopping?" Ya, I might be a bit blah about v-day, it being a big glaring reminder that I got nobody to snuggle with.

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Yeah, I've got no plans for Valentine's Day, either.

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my actual v-day will be at work. Woot. loading out super big show. saying good bye to the beautiful Meyer Line Array. wishing we could leave it in place. Alas, the theater doesn't have th $100,000 to do that.

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We're currently over at Wallybee's cousin's place. They have a little girl, a couple of months younger than Ryan. I'm not 100% sure, but they appear to be trying to race my baby.

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Go Ryan GO!

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