Oh, bonny. If there's one thing I've learned, you never know where the triggers are going to come from. Which is an awful, awful thing.
So sorry. {{{}}}
Angel: I can stay in town as long as you want me. Buffy: How's forever? Does forever work for you?
'Lies My Parents Told Me'
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amyth - Aug 23, 2010 3:12:21 pm PDT #29750 of 30000
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
JZ - Aug 23, 2010 3:17:24 pm PDT #29751 of 30000
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
{{{bonny}}}
Sometimes the humans make me despair utterly, and sometimes it's just as shocking, in the other direction, how much people can survive with grace and wit and selves intact. I just wish we could find some way to get to the grace without the terrible pain.
beekaytee - Aug 23, 2010 3:18:48 pm PDT #29752 of 30000
Compassionately intolerant
Bless you, sweeties. Please don't feel sorry for me. I stand firm on the foundation of...even with all that, I became me, and that's not bad.
It's just, every few blue moons, as you say amyth, with no apparent cause, I just sort of deflate.
Honestly, I really wrestled with saying anything at all because I don't want to be that ugly wet blanket. But I couldn't shake it...and this is one of the safest places on earth to be me.
amych - Aug 23, 2010 3:22:34 pm PDT #29753 of 30000
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?
I couldn't shake it...and this is one of the safest places on earth to be me.
Those are both excellent reasons to speak up here whenever you need to. And I'm so glad you became you in spite of the godawful path to get there.
beth b - Aug 23, 2010 3:25:50 pm PDT #29754 of 30000
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
Brackets and ma are because it is not a good day, but really you are a strong, successful, warm human being. I'm sorry you had to have a hard route, but you did do it.
beth b - Aug 23, 2010 3:27:13 pm PDT #29755 of 30000
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
and ION, I made a pound cake from this recipe today
It smelled really good before it went in the oven . smells so good now
Typo Boy - Aug 23, 2010 3:29:27 pm PDT #29756 of 30000
Calli: My people have a saying. A man who trusts can never be betrayed, only mistaken.Avon: Life expectancy among your people must be extremely short.
I hope I can send brackets anyway {{Bonny}}
Steph L. - Aug 23, 2010 3:36:32 pm PDT #29757 of 30000
the hardest to learn / was the least complicated
bonny, you're not a wet blanket! I'm glad you feel safe enough here to say anything. And thank you for saying it.
beekaytee - Aug 23, 2010 3:39:40 pm PDT #29758 of 30000
Compassionately intolerant
Now I feel all sniffly (thanks for the warmth) and am having a mad craving for pound cake. Go, powers of suggestion!
I think I'm going to slide right off my fairly successful diet (1200 calories per day) and go get some of the kettlecorn I like so much...watch some Primeval and go to bed early.
Yep. That's the ticket.
Nora Deirdre - Aug 23, 2010 3:44:15 pm PDT #29759 of 30000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
Oh, Bonny. So sorry about the trigger.