My eldest brother & his family are in town for the funeral and staying the night here. I'm really struggling with all the emotions I have around him. I'm the first-born but he's the one who's the golden boy. It's very difficult for me to be mature and just let that stuff roll off my back. It brings up some really deep-set feelings of injustice in me. It doesn't help that the way he was treated gave him a confidence I don't have and it's resulted in a much more comfortable existence for him than I've ever had.

I just want to stay in my room until he's gone but that's silly because we're going to have to interact at the funeral.

I have never heard of that crossing arms thing. I grew up Catholic and moved all over the country, too. I am not Catholic anymore and just stay in the pew when others go up for Communion. No one has ever suggested anything else to me. I've been an ex-Catholic for at least 25 years.

That's a tough one, Spidra. Hugs to you (if you want them).

Thanks, WindSparrow. I'm not a hug-hater.

Apparently even when alcohol tastes bad, you can get really really drunk.

Apparently even when alcohol tastes bad, you can get really really drunk.

Sure. People get drunk on beer all the time.

Beer is delicious. I'm drinking a delicious beer right now (Dales Pale ale in a can)!

I drank down my cosmo quick because it tasted like nail polish remover and I wanted to order something better bad idea.

So, pretty much two quick shots of vodka. Yeah, that'll do it.

if i just started a course of antibiotics, should i be avoiding alchohol or will i just be an even cheaper date than usual?

eta: please say it's ok, i really need to drink heavily tonight :(