And to top off the day, just got a voicemail from new school saying that though I'm obviously a talented teacher, they don't think I'm a good fit for their community. Which makes me feel like shit, frankly, because clearly I screwed something up on the interview day.

I'm so depressed right now.

Oh for fuck's sake. I don't get that school's decision AT ALL. There is not a damned school community on Earth that wouldn't immediately be better with you as part of it.

I am having a hard time picturing a community that you wouldn't be an asset to. WTF?

Oh, Pix. I can't understand why they would think that.

Oh sweetheart, that just sucks.

Pain-ease for the Pix, please.

Thanks. I won't lie--it's a huge blow right now. Everyone at school and all my family kept treating the job as a done deal as soon as I applied, even though I kept saying "I haven't gotten it yet" to everyone, and now I have to confirm that yes, indeed, they did reject me. And it was a real rejection--the associate head's message confirmed that they brought in a second round of candidates after I had interviewed in the first round since they didn't feel comfortable with any of the first rounders.

I'm still hurting. I feel some relief, but I don't feel like I'm about to pass out. Just slightly less in pain. Better than it was, at least.

Anyway, thank you, Bitches. I appreciate your love and support. I think I'm going to hole up and hide from the world for a little while now.

I'm sorry, Kristin. And I hope your meds kick in soon so you can have some pain relief. Ouch!

Pix, that sounds like crappy, generic, "we're saying this because it would take too much effort to give thoughtful, considered reasons," talk, babe. I know it's so hard not to, but please, try not to take it personally. You are a gifted, dedicated teacher and you deserve so much better.

That's hard, Pix. I'm sorry. Personally, I'd flip out with happiness if my either of my kids had a teacher like you.