I was worried about all that pain and then not seeing anything from you.

Thanks -t. Yeah, I passed out (in the fell asleep hard in bed way) for a while and when I woke up the scary pain had passed leaving the normal pain (which also sucks, but is more familiar and deal-able) in its wake. I might even go downstairs to the couch! Hmm, maybe tomorrow.

I just read the comments on that story. I think he handled the situation well, but I really don't like anyone too much if he says he "doesn't care about animals". I hope he didn't really say that, because I'd have to "really not care about Johnny Weir."

Not that it would matter to him.

Weir is indeed a class-act there.

When I was growing up I loved skating almost as much as I loved swimming. If I hadn't been so shy, I would have probably gotten to know some of the figure skaters in town a bit more.

Who knows, maybe I would have gotten good enough exercise to be thinner for my childhood.

I've mentioned before about how I was skating the whole lake in the center of town when the big snowstorm hit. I like a big stage.

ION?

Andi and I found blood oranges for 99 cents a pound at the grocery store today. I have one right here by my keyboard...

He probably did, in response to PETA harassing him over fur trim on costumes. Again, mouthy diva at times.

Though, mouthy diva who DID used to be an equestrian as a lad and at least likes or liked large animals: [link]

(OMG, he looks like SUCH A BABY there!)

Yeah, I'd be pissed if PETA were harrassing me, too. I hate that organization and think they do way more harm then good.

PETA was doing some hard-core harassment leading up to the Olympics. In their typically disgusting fashion.

Blood orange no longer by keyboard.

Hey, blood orange seeds. How long to a fully producing blood orange tree?

These are apparently Moro variety blood oranges.

How many sentences can I write with the phrase "blood oranges' in them?

PETA was doing some hard-core harassment leading up to the Olympics. In their typically disgusting fashion.

Rumor has it they were physically threatening him, causing him to change his plans at the last minute from staying in a hotel to the Olympic Village, where protection was easier to come by.

Yep.

Damn, it's funny to read that almost-decade old article about him, when he was still a wet behind the ears high school student and his favorite part of skating was jumping.

Okay so I survived work.

I wasn't fired, my boss - who is a really great guy -- asked me why I didn't raise up the Red Flag for Help sooner, I told him...well probably too much.

The gist of it (after him meeting with the COO), is I need to get a list of things that need to be done RIGHT NOW and what they are and then a list of everything I have to do for this program and the other thing I've been given and what I need - time a way from my desk, training etc.

And then I'm meeting with him on Monday and we'll go from there. He also had no idea I'd received only a little bit of training from one accountant and that no one explained what the responsibilities would be. So one of the things on my list of needs is to know how much of this is solely my responsibility.

I realized I really need to pursue getting some therapy and I called my shrink's office and left a message so I'm hoping for a call back next week.

This kinda ties into the political stuff a bit with the claim that words don't really hurt.

One of the problems that keeps plaguing me is that I don't think I have the right to ask for help, I always approach situations as if I'll be denied help and will just be told to suck it up and deal. But that's the message I've gotten over the years for so many things. When my bipolar disorder really started effecting me in late elementary school and middle school the psychologist I was seeing would tell me things like "If you wanted to you could be like the other kids" and "If you loved your mother you wouldn't make her cry" and "You can change if you want." When I was being bullied in middle school and i finally told a teacher I was told "don't react, when you react you're making it worse and giving them a reason". And there have been other situations in jobs, like the place I was before this -- I went to help and I was told to figure it out on my own.

I'll be 37 years old and I'm still emotionally scared for what a person in power told me nearly over 25 years ago.