Ah, Drew. I know I keep saying sorry, but I'm sorry to have made it worse for you as you are missing your dad. The crappy thing is, I know there are no words that can really make up for that.

My screaming rant got me heaps of validation. Y'all really have helped me step back a bit from that edge. I'm putting some effort into squashing the feeling that I don't deserve it.

Squashing leaves it there to grow back later when your defenses are down.

Look it square in the eye. Tell it you now have a level of stability of affection and respect in your life that you didn't get to grow up with.

In that context "you don't deserve it" was logical for you to think. It was incorrect, but it was a reasonable conclusion for you to reach.

It is not anymore. You now have people in your life who not only say they love you and that you are beautiful, they mean it and will continue to say it.

So look that old lie in the face and say good bye. Wish it well even, it must be sad to be a lie. Give it a smooch on the cheek and set it free.

Love. Exactly this.
 
Oh, I`ll never get over my unrequited love for Jordan Catalano, will I? That`s pretty much how the SO`s hawk looks, except that his hair is thinner. So there`s a little less bulk.

Liese, it's OK to be mohawksexual. I am. :)

(The underage eyecandy in New Orleans just shaved his hair into a mohawk and it looks reallllly good on him. Right after I started talking about visiting. Damn, make it more tempting, whydontcha?)

Hee, meara, that`s a truth about myself I`m willing to live with. I love it just as much on the punk girls in the mosh pit. I had another comment but it devolved into tmi about my sex life. Suffice it to say mohawks==hawt in eye of beholder where beholder=me.

Underaged dudes in mosh pits tend to land on my friend Shannon and me.

We look at them and sigh... oh so pretty.

But then we notice: There are no tattoos. He's too little. Throw him back.

I have caught up. Wow! Tons of posts. I confess, skimmed. I've had good docs, stupid docs, insensitive docs, and amazing docs. That said, I do an excellent job at avoiding trips to the doc office. After a childhood of every month a doc appointment, and every quarter, a visit with another doc, and being poked/prodded/pointed at (college of medicine + rare disease = living classroom. joy (not)), all that said, my feable brain equates that to "I've had my fair share". I know, I should go. but golly, work is so busy, and the frustrating HMO system says I gotta plan the visit MONTHS ahead of time, unless it's an emergency. Blah. Said too much.

ION - yesterday on All Things Considered, there was a story about video game ratings, so parents could get a sense of what was in the game, and if it was appropriate for kids of various ages. Then they started talking about Xbox Live, and how playing with an anonymous person 'on the other side of the world' leads to a different game play, due to misogynist, racist, homophobic, abuse, etc types of comments. The interviewer asked the interviewee if there was a way to complain and get a real time feedback to ban a player. Interviewee was explaining that it wasn't immediate. Interviewer wasn't grasping the process, so he whips up an example. "So, if I'm playing online with a player, whose screen name is, say, POLAR BEAR, and they say something offensive. I make a complaint to Xbox that player POLAR BEAR said this type of statement, what then happens to POLAR BEAR?" (paraphrase). I couldn't help but think, dude! you just said POLAR BEAR on national radio!

I, for one, welcome our new POLAR BEAR overlords.

Possibly the funniest POLAR BEAR picture EVER: [link]

Oh that's awesome.