Oh someone's skating to the music from Love Actually. How perfect for Vday.

Can't sleep. Snoring cat and random anxiety attack. Feh. I have to be at work by eight tomorrow.

{{{smonster}}}

I fell asleep after getting back from dinner and then woke up around the time that I should be getting to bed, which just screwed up my sleep schedule entirely.

Ate way too much food at the comfort food valentine's day party . Being to ld by the 7 yr old that i 'hit it' with the man'n' cheese - as he was on his way to get more way one of the best parts of the day. And it was a very good day.

...still awake. Have applied meditation podcast and stretched back to no avail.

Count of OKC dudes at show tomorrow now three. This could be... interesting.

Heh. You're trying to reach critical mass, smonster?

Sucks that you're still awake. Eesh.

I am trying to decide how much more I should require myself to accomplish before I go to bed. I have no need to go to sleep yet, except in that I have to actually get up at a decent hour tomorrow, and do shit. Yesterday and today I slept in too late. But at least today I did some stuff (but haven't done enough, yet)

whew. Big show is done. Sound system is all boxed up. Tomorrow the truck comes to take it all away as we load in the next show in the small space. Oy. Body is tired, brain still not quite there yet.

Smonster, hope you got to sleep, and are ok.

Today I didn't wear black, as I normally do. Instead, khaki (as close to white as I could when working in dusty/dirty conditions.) Trying to be optimistic.

smonster, your date line-up sounds fun! Enjoy.

We are off to Norfolk (which is not, as I just discovered, the Cotswolds. I thought it was. I am spatially challenged). No internet or TV for four days (but there is a log fire). I will be reading a lot of books (and writing an essay, a PhD application and an article). The Girl says it's going to rain for four days straight, but is also excited that it's mussels season on the Norfolk coast. Have a good week, all!

I am still cranky. i slept great, and i am uber cranky gal. i am also utterly useless at work. i keep messing up, things like setting up calls for locations that don't exist. basic geography stuff we learned in academy. everyone at dispatch has been hating me all night because they have to think about my locations, and i can't blame them after three errors in one evening. i also have been sucking at dispatch, transposing and mistyping numbers which can lead to serious very bad things like people getting shot. i was fine two weeks ago, now i suck like i can't believe. i have lost all my confidence and just want to go home and curl up with the kitties and cry. i really am worried i'm not going to make it through this phase of training which would be very bad. i have no idea how to get my confidence back and no one at work can help me because they just want me to stop sucking and i understand their frustration which only compounds my suckiness and misery.

can i please just start this month over?

Oh, erin_o. Much punctuation to you.

Sleepy~vibes for all who are still awake when they need sleep.