Much job~ma Erin. I hope you can find something better.

Definitely wishing you better job~ma, Erin. What asshats.

Epic! You should post more often.

Thanks, I'll try.

Hey, look at that. I just did!

Are you and TCG recovered from The Ick sufficiently to enjoy your weekend, sj?

Basically, I've gotten feedback for being absent too much. I get it -- I do. You need people to be there,

However, I work in a Petri dish and I GOT SICK. Fever, chills, massive snot, sneezing literally (no hyperbole) 20 times an hour for 24 hours.

Dude. WTF.

I got feedback last week that I was rude to a caller. I may have been short, sure. I was very goal-focused: four phones ringing, house filled to capacity, stats a month overdue because of NO TIME to do all the things they want me to do (and believe me, they wanted 60 hours of work in 40 hours, no overtime, no work taken home, direct care, crises like kids trying to cut other kids with big ol' pieces of glasses and creating homemade pepper spray and evacing the house). Um. Yes.

So last Thursday was a "You're rude" Talk. I broke down after leaving my boss' office, crying, and rather than cry in front of a houseful of kids, I walked into the pantry to cry for five minutes. Got castigated for no one knowing where I was. Only time it's ever happened.

Then a performance review review Wednesday at 3. Basically a page of "You're too condescending and sometimes sarcastic and have gotten feedback from youth about this."

The same youth who call me bitch, cunt, white whore, and spit at me, BTW. A larger number of whom I have excellent rapport with, FWIW.

Then, you're not creating enough lesson plans with value for Learning CenterC. I get 1 hour a week to do lesson plans. Same hour in which I am supposed to return calls, check my weeks worth of email on my slow-ass PC, clean the LC, sign up for trainings, etc. So let's say actually about 35 minutes to create 15 HOURS worth of assignments for Y 6th grade to 12, with IEP's, SPED, PTSD, schizoaffective disorder, giftedness, MR, psychotic behaviors....

So, after the 3 o' clock talk on Wednesday, the same day we evac'd for an hour because of the pepper spray, I am trying to do 5 hours of documentation on 13 kids, a months worth of stats, 13 incident reports and I just cried for 45 minutes in front of my boss after being told I have a month to "improve" before my review or I'll be let go.

There's a single office with two phone, 1 fax, 1 computer, and one table and all the files. 8 people are in this 20X20 space (which has about 3 feet of actual space unoccupied by bodies, stuff, file cabinets, table, machinery, mailboxes, etc.) that day. I was harried, upset and busy. Oh, did I mention you get in trouble if you don't leave on time?

I made a comment to a co-worker (who I didn't THINK was s backstabbing pussy) "Wow, unemployment just looks better and better!" I clocked out at 4:07, being cognizant of the "NO OVERTIME" thing, but got caught up helping my shift worker with writing the 13 incident reports. (BTW,we're told we MUST have all documentation done before leaving shift.)

So I go home, cry and cry and cry and talk with my BF. I've been LOOKING for another position, but am determined to do a good job until I find something better.

Do you guys know. . . gosh, jobs are HARD TO FIND, right now!! Teacher jobs have a CYCLE!! OMFG WOW -- concept.

So I come in Thursday, cheerful, pleasant, patient, teach an amazing lesson, and get pulled in after lunch to confront the co-worker who said I was "negative" yesterday afternoon, and who (even though I was not negative towards her or the youth -- I asked) just felt that "that kind of negativeness makes it hard for other people to get things wrapped up at the end of the day."

And basically I was told " This was right after the discussion we had yesterday. We don't think shows that your behavior will change. Besides, staying to work after you had clocked out was dishonest."

And I was fired.

Yep, I was "negative" for the hour after I got that talk. I was upset. I made a few coments like "I need a computer" and "Umemployment looks better and better!" to a fucking THERAPIST who ran to the boss and complained and I apparently got an hour of my month and a half to "change my behavior."

STAB STAB STAB. I am NOT set up for working in a female-oriented therapy-based environment, apparently, because GET THE FUCK OVER IT. Let me do my incredibly hard, stressful, way too much work, way too little time or resources job and can I VENT once in (continued...)

( continues...) a while? I Hold Jesus, I got fired for not being able to be Pollyanna?

BITE ME.

(Ok, I needed to vent. This will all work out for the best, and I was at fault for some things, but FOR FUCK'S SAKE -- an hour?! I didn't even stab someone or call anyone names? WTFF?!)

Erin, that is so massively fucked up on all levels. Here's hoping you find a saner environment to work in soon!!

I didn't even stab someone or call anyone names? WTFF?!)

THIS is why I adore Erin. You so deserve better. That sounds like a toxic environment and fuck 'em with a rusty chainsaw if they can't take a real person.

Erin?

After what you told here, I believe you deserve the Noble Peace Prize.

Erin, your bosses are idiots. They don't deserve to have real human beings work for them.

You need to contest that firing with the unemployment folks, Erin, so you can get benefits. That's way fucked up. Especially, since you stayed past your clocked out time to put in work hours. They get you for free and then fire you? No fucking way.