Yep. I told my recruiter that it wasn't enough money for to me to consider applying for it. Aaaaand I just found out that another job I applied for (with a friend's recommendation) has already been filled. Feh. Today is fired.

I'm sorry, Jilli. I hope tomorrow brings something better.

Hope that now they recognize they really do need you they can be made to pony up and get you back, Jilli. (Or, y'know, that you see so much success with the book that you get a three book deal that parlays itself into a daytime talkshow or summat so you can tell them to take a long walk off a short pier. Whichever).

For those of you playing along at home - I picked a few key points from y'all's helpful responses (plus just felt more justified, y'know?) and sent this reply:

I get that "Act 2" of the song is the date rapist getting it too, but this is my point - that it's never funny (or acceptable). Not even when the guy "deserves" it. The song is not anti-rape. It implies date rape is ameliorated by prison rape. That's pro-rape, just so long as it's The Right Kind of Rape.

As quickly as I dive for the radio button when I hear the opening notes of this song (when it's not snuck in by my alarm clock at o'dark thirty in the morning), I imagine that someone who's actually had this crime perpetrated on them is even less likely to listen to the whole song. And even if they do let the song play out, I can't really imagine them listening to the "punch line" of the song and saying, "Oh, well that's okay then." A trigger is a trigger, and rape leaves lifelong scars on its victims. Making light of the issue shows a lack of sensitivity I find troubling.

And if the message was getting through, I don't think that we would have the problems we currently do with our prisons all being filled well past their capacities.

I recognize that I am just one listener, but I understand that one person who takes the time to write in must be assumed to be representative of several more who are either "suffering in silence" or just changing the station.

Nevertheless, I appreciate you taking the time to dialogue about this rather than just dismissing it, and I hope that you will seriously consider my request. I would be sorry to leave 94.9.

Thank You, We shall see what results.

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I have bipolar disorder and it's mostly deep depressions with anxiety attacks punctuated by hypomania not the extreme mania. I never had the compulsion to go and SPEND SPEND but that's not the end all be all of what mania is. I would do more obsessive things --there would be one thing I'd just totally focus on and it would have all my attention until my moods shifted and then I'd forget it .

For example (and this was when things were starting to get bad) I started going to church 3 times a week, reading every book I could get my hands on about Christianity, praying all the time, reading my Bible all the time. And then I went to a party and met a guy and started going out to bars every night and started drinking and never went back to church or read any book and stopped praying. All my focus went to this guy (and then to another). I barely got any sleep and felt like I could run on 2 hours of sleep. Plus I got really angry really easy. Terrible road rage.

I lost my self control and impulse control and I'd do just about anything. There was a time I was obsessing about tattoos (several years before the religoius stuff) and if I'd had money I probably would have lots of tattoos right now. Only I was broke so no follow through. Oh, and I was super hyper. It was like I was on ELEVENTY!1!!OMIGOD!1!!! all the time. But no follow through.

Lots of big plans, lots of new starts but no follow through. I started college on a whim, I broke up with a boy friend on a whim. It was like my brain was being run by a hamster wheel. A hamster wheel with a hamster on speed.

Most of my life though it was months long depressive episodes with spikes of energy and then more depression.

Thank fully because of medication and therapy (although I could use more therapy) I'm where I am now.

I don't know how my bipolar disorder would be classified, the therapist I worked with said it didn't matter what we classified it was all bipolar disorder.

I spent most of my life with the diagnosis atypical depression until I landed in the hospital and they said "bipolar disorder". I've read about Early Onset Bipolar Disorder (when it shows up in kids) and I really think that's what I have.

I've only read one book on manic depression but I highly recommend it: An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness (Paperback)

Redfield Jamison is AWESOME. She wrote one of my favorites, Touched with Fire.

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Thank you. I just feel better for having articulated it and put it out there. Let's hope that it makes even a teeny difference. Because I really do prefer their format and really would hate to leave.

Nothing to add to the mental health discussion, other than a pretty low-grade depression seems to run in my family - for which my mother is taking something but I thankfully haven't needed to yet (tho' there were times when it was a near thing). And my extremely low-grade OCD that hasn't interfered with life.

She wrote one of my favorites, Touched with Fire.

I think she wrote this, and then outed herself as bipolar in An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness, right? Anyway, I'd forgotten about Touched with Fire - I should read that.

It was good...I learned a lot. Cool...I got in at the ground floor of a Kos Olbermann diary...I hope that was not my break for the week, but it was nice not to be at the bottom of a trillion comments. That is like Wonk beatlemania, I swear. He used to crash the servers.